@Emre_Malvin yh I suffered that too.... and one day I was getting bored and randomly typed on Google about how people talk about me..... I know thats creepy and funny but it helped me a little bit.... so I suggest you also do the same as it might helo you....I've been through from what you are going through and I know how you feel, you're not alone but what you are doing will not help you, take my advice and try to love yourself and I know its really hard im going through it right now but it'll make you a BIT feel good