Like the only thing running thru my head is how worthless and horrible I am and how terrified I am of having someone hurt me. That's why I lash out violently I think, so that I hurt them before anyoenhas a chance to hurt me..I think my last panic attack was at like 2 am,All that I kept thinking was of how horrible I am and how much I've hurt others and how afraid I am of being hurt !yself, it was over a week ago Cus that's how long I've had my cuts on my legs