Always with Heeseung,
I finished my vacation yesterday, so today I sat down to start writing the new chapter of my story. That’s when I got a notification on Weverse from Heeseung. I was happy to see the update… but when I read the letter, my world fell apart.
I’ve been stanning Enhypen since I-LAND. It’s been almost six years with them. In a way, I grew up with them. So the sudden departure of Heeseung left me more than heartbroken. I don’t know when or how I’ll recover from this… or if I ever will. Right now I just don’t know anything.
I’ve been crying nonstop, and he isn’t even my bias. But he was someone who always gave me strength. From Sunoo I learned never to give up, but from Heeseung I learned how to do everything with passion—how to strive to be the best while still staying humble. He was my role model. I wanted to be like him.
I’m still crying while writing this. I was eagerly waiting for the next episode of EN-O'Clock, but now I can’t imagine watching it without him. He wasn’t just a hyung to Enhypen—he felt like a big brother to me too.
I will always support him, but things will never feel the same.
Until the last day of the world, Enhypen will always be seven to me. I’ll keep supporting the group because of Sunoo, but the grief and loss will probably stay with me for a long time.
Engenes, stay strong. Stay hopeful. I still believe in God, in prayers, and in miracles.
For now… I think I need a break.