@EnnoJohan_Official while it might not be very potent due us being practically strangers. You should know that, at least in stories, grief, heartbreak, and unfairness is how a character, in this case you, develop. While wether or not this development is good... Well in reality it can be complicated. But I digress.
But as someone with anxiety, who kinda understands how you feel, I can say that, the best remedy for fear, sadness, and other ugly feelings, is, as cleshe as it sounds, tears. I Find something like a show or music that makes me sad, is the best way to do this. Basically as odd as it sounds make yourself as sad as possible to somewhat relieve the pain though tears.