This is a little rant of some sort that I've been itching to speak of for a really long time, and I hope anyone who sees this would understand.
So as you all know, I've started writing last year, and I've never stopped since. I've grown to love writing, and I cannot stop once I pick up a pen or start typing on my laptop with the endless flow of inspiration flowing in and out of me like a steady, gushing river.
Some time after I've started writing, I have seen lots of digital art and (as nosy as I was) decided to learn a bit of that too. To be honest I still prefer writing, but art was also a great form of leisure for me too. So I've started drawing.
Now, when I look back at my published works both written and drawn, I don't think I'm actually talented in either. The pieces I draw are pretty much basic, and they're nothing like what others manage to pull off. The books and stories I write aren't good either, more of a failed attempt to express myself through mere stories mapped out by my imagination. I want to express myself through one of these, or even better both of these activities, yet I can't do either because I am lacking in talent and experience in both.
As you know or might have noticed, my current books are actually hidden vents in the form of stories just so I could express myself. Now stuff have become even more complex, and I'm lacking in everything to express myself.
I feel lost and empty without a way to show what I'm thinking and feeling indirectly to others. Whether people take that into account or not, it just makes me feel better than all my pent up emotions locked inside.
Let's just pray hope I improve myself more in both ways, just so I can show not others, but myself what I can actually accomplish.
Thank you if you've read this far.
Yours sincerely,
Aery.