Estrella Rose

Hello! I haven't been too active lately, but believe me, I did have something to do. But we will talk about it later. And now I want to talk about the new song of mine. I didn't actually plan to do this, but then I recalled that my debut song "Help Me Breathe" was going to celebrate its second anniversary (you can listen to this song on my YouTube channel). And so, I am ready to introduce you to the song called "Toxic Closure" that became a soundtrack for the book "The Lost And Forgotten Memories". I wrote this song back in the summer last year alongside more tracks that I still want to publish.
          
          In "Toxic Closure", I broach the topic of happiness of freedom from a toxic relationship, which the hero of the song is madly happy to end. It tells us about how it got him exhausted rapidly and brought him to a certain boiling point. To the moment when he realised that he was done with it! When the hero finally managed to find the strength to break this vicious circle, ignore the one who was sure that she would press on him again and again. He managed to break free before a certain toxic poison destroyed the victim. Though it's sometimes madly hard to do it for one or another reason: love, an addiction, fear, affection, or anxiety. And after this, the hero didn't break down. He didn't withdraw into himself after the pressure he was put under. He became much stronger. He learned to understand people. He broke contact with those who didn't prove their loyalty with no regret. And he started to appreciate freedom much more. So much that it became a problem to some extent. However, next to the right version, even a fear of losing control of your life and ending up at the mercy of someone who loves to assert themselves at the expense of others can go away slowly, so that the person can feel beloved and happy.
          
          Toxic Closure: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6bI5rZeha0
          Lyrics: https://www.wattpad.com/story/369110799-stronger-together-song-book

So, it's been really long, but here it is, the FINAL CHAPTER of "The Criminal Diaries". "Finally!" – that’s what the characters would say if they were standing in front of me. To be honest, it’s a little sad to finish this project, which I’ve given so much energy and effort to, but which also helped me get through a hard time during its writing process. "The Criminal Diaries" is now my favorite work ever, and I can say that it’s strong, mature, bold, and candid. Though I didn't plan this book to be as heavy and depressing as it turned out. It just happened that way. I wrote and thought, and came up with something that might cause an explosion on the spaghetti factory on your head.
          
          So, what’s next? Do you think I’ll wrap up the "Stronger Together" series just because this book was planned as the last one? Nope, you're wrong! No, I’m not putting a dot in the series' history and forgetting about it once and for all. Vice versa, I’d like to continue developing the "ST" universe, despite the opinion that you'd better focus on something new rather than hang on to the old. Yes, "The Criminal Diaries" is currently the last book in the series, but who knows, maybe I’ll wake up one morning and think, “I need MORE!” five or seven years from now. For example, between writing "The Lost And Forgotten Memories" (2016) and "The Criminal Diaries" (2024), eight years passed. I also don’t exclude the possibility of writing some spin-offs to tell the stories of other characters from the series. Maybe there will be alternative stories that explore things that never happened in the main books. Or just some short stories that are connected with the series but not included in the main plot. Right now, my main focus is on the music from the "Stronger Together" universe. I still have many tracks waiting for their moment to shine, and I’ll be releasing them one by one.
          
          Love, Estrella Rose.
          
          Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/story/395134099-the-criminal-diaries

Hello, my sweet estrellitas! We’re almost at the finish line – the last but one Chapter 49 of "The Criminal Diaries," is now available for reading. It's quite short and focused on our newlyweds, who have sent all the guests home to rest after such an eventful day and have gone off to spend their first marriage night together. A night they’ve been waiting for a very long time. Honestly, I spent a lot of time wondering whether this chapter was even necessary, since it’s dedicated entirely to romantic moments like “I love you, I want you.” Moreover, it was originally really long, and there were a lot of details. Especially after I added scenes with the second couple. But actually, when I finished working on "The Lost and Forgotten Memories", where, I can remind you, the wedding chapters were originally supposed to be, there was no wedding night scene at all. I wrote it because another couple, who got married in the early version of "The Sins of the Past," had one (though that scene wasn’t always in it). Nevertheless, after thinking a lot, countless edits, and removing some moments with no regret, I decided to keep it after all.
          
          I can hardly believe that I’ll be publishing the final chapter of this book next week. It feels like just yesterday I decided to write it, spent over a year working on the overall concept, and waited for the moment when I could finally dive into working on it. And now we're getting close to the moment when another one of my “tomes of Brazilian-level drama” is coming to an end. You can check out my other works and explore the books from the "Stronger Together" series to get a clearer idea of who is who. I’ll be waiting for you on April 28th – the day the final chapter of "The Criminal Diaries" is released. I will be waiting for your thoughts on this story, to which I’ve given more effort and energy than ever before.
          
          Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/story/395134099-the-criminal-diaries

Hello, my sweet estrellitas! The closer we get to the finale of "The Criminal Diaries", the less I have to say about the remaining chapters and what happens in them. And honestly, there is no need to get deep into detail because everything can now be summed up in just a few words. The characters begin celebrating the marriage of two loving couples. The men have officially gotten the right to have their girls in the eyes of the law, while the girls can now proudly wear their beautiful wedding rings and have their husbands’ last names in official documents. By the way, what do you think about women changing their last name after marriage? Do you think it’s something they must do? Or are you more flexible about it, believing that true love depends on completely different things?
          
          To be honest, the entire book turned out to be so dark and emotionally heavy that these lighthearted chapters stand out a lot against the overall tone. I would even say they don’t match the general concept of the story. But on the other hand, life isn’t only about negativity, and there’s positivity in it, too. Maybe there isn't always a lot of it, but it’s still there. And after everything the characters have gone through, I believe that they do deserve to relax, have some fun, enjoy life, and focus on what really matters to them. While working on the "Stronger Together" series, I always imagined the whole story as a TV show. Like a soap opera that our moms or grandmothers or even we ourselves, ladies, could never miss when new episodes were out. And even though I personally prefer older, time-tested stories (especially those from the ’90s and 2000s) much more, I still find inspiration in modern films and series as well. So if you look closely, you might catch glimpses of things that once inspired me in my work. Or maybe not…
          
          Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day!
          Love, Estrella Rose.
          
          Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/story/395134099-the-criminal-diaries

Actually, I can publish two songs for Chapter 47 from my book "The Criminal Diaries" that I released today. But now we will talk about just one of them - "All That Remains". I consider this song one of my favorites, and I was waiting for the moment to publish it. And it's one of the tracks, working on which was much easier than most of them – I wrote it super fast and didn't spend too much time generating it in Suno, even though it was hard to choose between several good variations. However, there are still some issues. But we can all close our eyes to me having two left hands and the fact that pasting pieces from different versions of songs is obviously not my thing?
          
          By writing this song, I showed that the male lead character, who was a little crazy throughout the book, especially in the middle of the story, stopped running from his past and stopped denying everything that gave him a strong psychological trauma. He used to prefer to pretend that it didn't happen to him and tried so hard to suppress his feelings related to that trauma, but now the man tries to accept it and learn to live with what can't be fixed. He doesn't say everything is forgotten, everyone is forgiven, and everything is in the past. He is in the process. He just started it, and now it's a matter of time. Nevertheless, now the lead male character wants to learn to live with his nightmare from the past and face it bravely. Because... Before he let himself (to be clear, before someone "helped" him) come back to the roots, his relationships with people hadn't been good due to his mistrust and expectations of some bad tricks. There were many problems... There was much suffering... But he's gotta move on and think about his life. The guy does understand it, and he is ready to do this. Of course, with the help of those he loves and is afraid to lose to death.
          
          All That Remains: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=40midRRrznM
          Lyrics: https://www.wattpad.com/story/369110799-stronger-together-song-book

Hello, my sweet estrellitas! I somehow managed to catch some kind of virus, and I’ve almost lost my voice, but that’s not the thing that can stop me from publishing new parts of "The Criminal Diaries". I understand that this whole process has been too long, but I promise, it’s almost over. There are only three chapters left. Three chapters before the book gets marked complete. I actually don’t have so much to say about this part, so this post will be short. As I mentioned earlier, this chapter is about our lovely lovebirds, who will finally celebrate their wedding, bringing joy to their families, who can now exhale with relief, knowing that their dearest people won’t be alone anymore and will make their own families. This time, I’m sure that these couples are getting married at the right moment. Not because of their families' pressure, but because they truly want to…
          
          By the way, here’s a little fact: wedding scenes are probably the biggest in the entire series, since they involve the biggest number of people – both mentioned and not. In this chapter, some characters from previous books will return. These are the ones who were kind of forgotten by both the characters and the author, who just couldn’t figure out how to feature them in the story. Many moments had to be shortened and described in just a couple of sentences. And I also added a scene that briefly brings us back to the conflict between the lead male character and the antagonist. At first, I only wanted to mention a bit of information from it, but somehow it grew into a full scene – a little sad at the beginning, but sweet enough closer to the end.
          
          Hang in there, guys, the end of another super long story of mine is very close. No matter what, I’ll do everything I can to make sure that the final chapter of this book is released exactly on April 28th, as I announced earlier.
          
          Thank you for your attention!
          Love, Estrella Rose.
          
          Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/story/395134099-the-criminal-diaries

I continue to release new parts of "The Criminal Diaries" to bring the story to an end. This time, the focus is on the wedding. To be clear, the preparations just a few hours before the ceremony. And since there’s not much to tell about the plot, I’ll dedicate this post to the early versions of the story. In case you didn’t know, one of the couples getting married in the next chapter was married in the early version of the book back in Book 1, and the other couple tied the knot in Book 4 (back then). To be honest, that always bothered me. I felt that the characters got married too early. But despite that, they lived a happy enough life. In the very earliest version of the story, written in 2011, they even had a daughter, whom the antagonist of Book 2 used to get revenge on the lead female character. But actually, the plot was pretty silly. I just wrote whatever came to mind without worrying if it made sense. I simply wanted to write. But I removed that couple’s daughter from the story in the next versions. Then I rewrote the book to avoid mentioning the wedding at all. Nevertheless, I didn’t forget the scenes written for the first wedding and used them to create the engagement scene for that couple in Book 2 and details for the double wedding scene in "The Criminal Diaries". I eventually got some kind of hybrid. I didn’t want to do it at first, but the same thought kept nagging at me for a long time. It was like, “I want a double wedding!”. So I gave in…
          
          Chapter 46 turned out very long, and I deleted most of the moments. Even after that, the volume still didn’t feel short to me. So I had to split it into two parts. In short, this part focuses on the preparations, and the next part is the wedding itself. Yes, I could add these things into one short chapter, but that’s just not me – short descriptions and fast actions are definitely not my thing.
          
          Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/story/395134099-the-criminal-diaries

While the characters from my book "The Criminal Diaries" got a chance to relax and play the fool for the first time in a while, I want to tell you about another soundtrack for this one. It's called "Imaginary Frenemy". I managed not to spend too much time finishing work on the English version, even though the earliest variation was good, in the genre of heavy metal, but had too many screams that I don't like, honestly, despite my love for heavy music. The final version turned out to be softer, but it doesn't have any screams, as if someone put a piano or a closet on the little finger on the foot of the artist.
          
          This song is about the one who is the reason why the lead male character seems a little crazy. That's an imaginary person, who is a full copy of the lead character, acts like a loyal friend who is ready to listen and comfort, but sometimes becomes a real enemy who encourages him to commit unforgivable things, take revenge, hate, and so on. This imaginary person kinda helps but kinda harms. Meanwhile, the lead character understands that this creature helped him hold on for so long and kept what could have helped him put everything in order if he had wanted. But he does not want to. He tries so hard to escape it. And, the imaginary frenemy is kinda a keeper, and he had been playing this role for many years before he started to hint that time is up, and he should come back to the roots. I actually planned that he would appear in the nightmare of the lead male character. But his role changed little by little and became more ambiguous, even though there's a reason for all of this. And I explain it in this song. The reason why I postponed the publication of it for later is a spoiler. A lot of spoilers, I would say. Anyway, this character played a major role in the life of the lead male character.
          
          Imaginary Frenemy: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yYRdyzQAGpM
          Lyrics: https://www.wattpad.com/story/369110799-stronger-together-song-book

Honestly, I could've ended "The Criminal Diaries" with the previous Chapter 44 since all the main storylines were wrapped up. Nothing super epic is planned in Chapter 45, and the following parts will be pre-wedding and wedding chapters. These are the chapters that were originally meant to be part of "The Lost and Forgotten Memories", but eventually became a part of "The Criminal Diaries" because I decided to continue the story. In this chapter, for example, the characters come together to celebrate a bachelor and bachelorette party and to take a break after everything they’ve been through lately. They let themselves breathe, put their heroic suits aside, and show off their wit. Of course, these chapters were originally a bit different, and I had to edit and adapt them to fit the current plot and at least some level of logic. I also had to shorten them since there were way too many unnecessary descriptions. Of course, there’s still much of what may seem unnecessary, but it’s not critical anymore. Besides, I believe that after everything they’ve gone through, my characters do really deserve a good rest, more laughter, silliness, and fun. You decide whether you read the following chapters or not, but I’ve already warned you that they are mostly meant to bring the story to a happy ending. However, these parts will either be completely removed or shortened in the condensed version of "The Criminal Diaries", which I plan to publish after finishing the full version. And the final chapter – now I can say it with a 100% guarantee – will be published on April 28th. Remember this date and come back to read the full version of the book if you’re not a fan of ongoing works and prefer to “swallow” everything at once.
          
          Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/story/395134099-the-criminal-diaries

I didn't announce it, but I'd like to share another song for my book "The Criminal Diaries". It's called "You're Not Alone", and it's supposed to be performed by the co-lead male characters for the lead character in Chapter 44, which I published today, fully or partly.
          
          I call it a forgiveness song because it tells us about those who apologize to their friend whom they hurt a lot. About the people who understand their friend's pain, take the blame, and do not deny that they have never been loyal and decent folks. This song is about them being ready to work things out and do their best to make it right. No matter what, this man still means a lot to them, and they do not want to lose him. And even if that man himself is a walking catastrophe and gave them a lot of reasons to hate him, there's no talk about the offence. These people completely understand why he did it to them. They do not excuse him. They just want to understand him. They want to give their friendship a chance for the good things that connect them. Though a song for this chapter was supposed to be very simple, childish, naive, easy... Like, "birds sing, bunnies ain't afraid, kittens are with moms, puppies feel warm". But after thinking a lot and getting some suggestions from AI (that's my best helper that always offers me ideas that can really inspire me), I realized that I couldn't write anything connected with songs for children. So, I decided to choose a different way, and then things went much better. I think the work with music for this song was the hardest one I had had before. Honestly, I cursed everything in the world as I tried to change music several times, trying to get rid of the terrible quality, which the AI model had like one year ago when I wrote the lyrics.
          
          You're Not Alone: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dmaEENK7YTE
          Lyrics: https://www.wattpad.com/story/369110799-stronger-together-song-book