Estrella Rose

We continue our dizzying journey through the world of “The Criminal Diaries” and are rapidly making our way to Chapter 36. One of the co-lead characters meets the lead character’s girlfriend, who is alive and unharmed (almost). He does not believe what he sees and thinks that stress has triggered some serious glitches, and that his mind has gone off on a round-the-world trip. And the girl herself can hardly believe that she is free and alive. That she can finally go home and no longer be afraid of threats from anyone. So these two completely dumbfounded people meet and decide to go to a café to take some strong tea and put a piece of cake into their mouths. And, of course, to talk about everything. About how all of this is possible. About how the girl survived when the men saw everything with their own eyes. And when the other co-lead characters find out – oh, it's wild: the men are in shock but squealing with joy, the girls are about to faint and all in tears, and the dog, overwhelmed with happiness, is racing around the house, crashing into every possible corner and knocking his beloved owner off her feet.
          
          The lead male character is wandering around nobody knows where, doing nobody knows what, and dreaming desperately of becoming invisible to the entire world. The problem is that while he can hide from people, there’s no way to hide from his hallucination even in another dimension. So, he has to listen to the constant talks about him urgently needing to remember what he forgot, return to his roots, and stop denying something that has been chasing him like a dog with its tongue out for many years. And at the same time, he starts to realize that he is starting to miss his friends. Miss them badly. Miss his friends, for whom he feels terribly ashamed. So, ashamed that he does not pick up his phone to send a short message like: “Hi.”
          
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          Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0

Hello, my sweet estrellitas! Let’s talk about Chapter 35 of my book “The Criminal Diaries”. Our beauty, who magically avoided being roasted on a spit thanks to a sudden surge of unexpected nobility, still has to spend time in the apartment of the antagonist’s former accomplice. The man who continues amazingly to evade the police, even though they are literally searching for him in every mouse hole. But today is the day when the bird can finally leave the cage and fly high. When she can get the freedom she was deprived of by force. The girl jumps with joy up to the ceiling (literally), but she has no idea how she is going to show up for her friends, her grandma, and her boyfriend as if nothing had happened. Meanwhile, the co-lead characters and the grandma themselves seriously begin to wonder if she really died for the first time in a while after the policeman's words about their friend, who has not been found yet – neither alive nor dead. Now, even the men who clearly saw how their friend “died” start to doubt if what they were shown was the real picture of events. Little by little, they begin to feel more alive and bring back the ability to use their brains and think more broadly…
          
          As for the lead male character, he is not going to believe in these miracles at all and continues to drown his pain with a lot of alcohol, in the company of his hallucination. And when you desperately want everyone to leave you alone, every single person suddenly thinks they should approach you, give you some unsolicited advice, and deliver a lecture, pretending to be some kind of life-experienced psychologist. It makes you want not just to snap and start yelling, but to punch someone in the face. But that would be wrong. It would lead to serious trouble. Especially when there are so many witnesses around who definitely won’t close their eyes to someone who violates public order.
          
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Hello, my sweet estrellitas! First of all, I would like to congratulate you (if you celebrate it) on Orthodox Christmas. And even if 2026 has only just begun, and you may not be used to this fact, it's not a reason to postpone the publication of a new chapter of my book “The Criminal Diaries”. Chapter 34 is on our agenda today. So, the lead male character, who earlier went, let’s say, “a little,” wild, when he lost his mind "a little", decides to return to his roots. To return to the place he ran away from many years ago in the sprinter speed. A walk through familiar streets gives him a feeling of panic and anxiety, and leads him to his childhood home, which is kind of forgotten by everyone and completely abandoned. Well… Almost… A little later, the man runs into a vigilant old woman, who turns out to be his neighbor of a very old age. And he does not decline her invitation to come in for a cup of tea and a chat, while his hallucination sits on his neck this whole time and literally lashes the male character with an imaginary whip, provoking him constantly and whispering things, for which the hallucination itself obviously must get slapped in the face.
          
          Meanwhile, his girlfriend continues to spend time in the apartment of the former antagonist, recalling the evening when she and her boyfriend, young and reckless, threw a party for two. A party that came as a package deal with hellish pain and hangover, regret over what was done, and explosive arguments. The co-lead characters also begin to "come alive" little by little, even though the “death” of a close friend turns out to be much harder for one of them to endure than for others. In short, guys, the rubber band keeps stretching, stretching, and stretching, and the feeling that life will not get better soon grows freaking rapidly.
          
          Thank you for your attention!
          Love, Estrella Rose.
          
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          Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0

It feels like just recently I published a post about the end of 2024, but now it’s time to say goodbye to 2025. I'd like to sincerely wish a very Happy New Year to each and every one of you with the hope that all your ideas and desires will come true, and that you'll live in love and care alongside those you love.
          
          Last year, I wished to finish working on "The Criminal Diaries," write a few more songs, and work on the idea of one short story. In the end, I didn’t only do the last thing in this list 'cause I decided that the idea wasn’t very successful. But I am proud that I achieved my main goal for 2025 – I finished writing my book "The Criminal Diaries" from start to end. I created wonderful covers for it and publish new chapters regularly. Some new songs were written as well, and now they are waiting for their moment to shine. Do I consider my new book a success? Absolutely, yes! Not only because I truly love it and consider it one of the most emotional books of mine in a psychological sense, but also because it does have readers, even if there are only two people or somewhat. There is some interest in it, and I can clearly see that in the view statistics. Yes, the actions and moments may be controversial at times. But I consciously choose not to make my characters perfect, and I allow them to be loyal companions, who are ready to go through fire and water for those they love, as well as despicable bastards, who need to find themselves a victim.
          
          Overall, I can’t say that I’m at the bottom, even though there are still a lot of things I would like to achieve. Anyway, I sincerely thank everyone who subscribed to me this year, checked out my works, added them to their libraries, liked them, and even left comments. Everything matters to me and reminds me that I’m writing something that has at least some chance of being noticed. Maybe it's not perfect, but it's honest, unpolished, and written from the bottom of my heart.
          
          Happy New Year!
          Love, Estrella Rose.

I’m excited to share some info about Chapter 33 of "The Criminal Diaries", the last update in 2025. So, mourning continues even after one week has passed, even though some people manage to find the strength not to stay home all day and do at least something to distract themselves. Some people, but not the lead male character. He does not want to change anything and chooses to drown his grief in strong alcohol, and pretends so hard that there is no hallucination that turns either into a bloodthirsty parasite in human form, craving revenge, or into a supportive sweetheart with supposedly good intentions. In the blink of an eye. Today, they remember the character’s girlfriend again. To be clear, the moment when problems and a bottle of strong alcohol brought them closer in every sense of the word. Yes, yes, there will be a love scene in this chapter, for the first time in a long while. This is a “Hooray!” or an “Oh no!” – that’s what you decide.
          
          The co-lead characters are exactly those who find the strength to survive their grief thanks to each other’s support. They believe that the lead male character has spent enough time alone and decide to try to talk to him. But… This guy ignores all of them and runs from his friends as hard as possible. Nevertheless, their trip to their friend’s home leads to some result since they run into two old ladies, who have definitely claimed the bench outside the building as their own, and receive the confirmation that their suspicions regarding the lead male character possibly suffering from schizophrenia and dissociative identity disorder are not groundless. And by the way, if you’re reading my book, you should remember that one of the antagonist’s accomplices was not caught. So, in this chapter, we will find out what miracle helps him hide from the police and what secret he is ready to reveal when the time comes.
          
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I am thrilled to present to you my new work called “Monster With A Criminal Soul”, a dark, aggressive track from the book "The Criminal Diaries" that is much heavier musically than all of my previous songs. This song is meant to play in Chapter 31, during the lead male character’s nightmare scene, where he fights the dark forces hunting for his soul. I wrote this song back in the summer after watching "K-Pop Demon Hunters" and hearing the songs from it. To be clear, “Monster With A Criminal Soul” was inspired by the tracks “Takedown” and “Your Idol”. After hearing them, I immediately thought I wanted to write something dark, grim, and aggressive. And by the way, I can tell you one little secret: this song has an opposite version that focuses on the male character's light side, not his dark one.
          
          It's a story about the monster that the lead character himself is. About the confrontation between darkness and light within him. And in this case, the darkness is ready to claim its trophy, even if the last sparks of light desperately try to break through the impenetrable veil and wake him up from the nightmare. And although the song sounds as if it exists within the character’s dream, it actually reveals his dark side. It reveals the fact that he is not so sweet and fluffy, after all. However, even all of his actions and crimes have an explanation. There is a reason why he is what he is for readers of "The Criminal Diaries". The problem is that the character himself does not want to understand himself, to reflect on his past, or to accept who he is. To accept the part of himself he has rejected for almost his whole life. Even if there is a threat of remaining a monster in the eyes of everyone forever. A monster with a criminal soul, a defect in the eyes of the entire world.
          
          Monster With A Criminal Soul (English): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjUTiVzl__Q
          Lyrics: https://www.wattpad.com/story/369110799-stronger-together-song-book

Hello, my sweet estrellitas! Chapter 32 of "The Criminal Diaries" is a continuation of the mourning. The girls cannot stop crying and still hope to wake up and realize it was all just a bad dream. The men are doing their best to hold themselves together because someone has to stay strong and comfort everyone. Her grandmother no longer cares about anything.
          
          The lead male character is suffering too, but alone. In complete loneliness. Well… Almost… It seems like his hallucination is tired of being a silent observer, watching what is happening from afar. It decided to start pressing on his mind much more intensively, even though it had been walking hand in hand with him all the time. And now it tells him to stop running. Tells him to return to his past. Accept it. Allow himself to remember something that causes his wild panic. Something that made him who he is now. Something that causes him to do many terrible things. Or… Allow himself to give up and put an end to all the suffering once and forever, since he has voluntarily turned away from everyone, had many people mad at him, and lost the girl, for whom he was ready to learn how to live a normal life. And now, since there is no one left to save him and nothing left to lose, the possibility of something horrific and irreversible is higher than ever.
          
          By the way, the storyline with the hallucination came to me at the very last moment. Initially, this hallucination was supposed to appear in his night dream, which, by the way, I never planned to turn into a nightmare either. Yes, according to my earliest concept, it was meant to be just a sad dream, in which the deceased girl comes to the male lead character, says something, reminds him of her death, and leaves. But I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t want to complicate everything even more.
          
          Thank you for your attention!
          Love, Estrella Rose.
          
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          Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0

Hello, my sweet estrellitas! Chapter 31 of my book "The Criminal Diaries" shows us that everyone feels emptied. No one can believe in the death of the lead male character’s girlfriend, even though at least the men saw everything with their own eyes. Crushed by the loss of their close friend, the girls either try to convince themselves that it's a lie, or burst into bitter tears of grief, or blame the men for doing nothing, even though they could have changed the situation. The co-lead male characters themselves feel like schoolboys, whom no one believes when they try to prove their innocence. At the same time, they admit that the girls are right to some extent and do not deny their responsibility for what happened. The lead female character's dog also seems to understand everything perfectly and knows that, sadly, his owner will never come back to him.
          
          Do you think the lead male character is having fun right now? Not at all! Darkness comes for him. Eternal darkness. A perfect playground for demons who have taken on an unexpected form for him and are determined to claim his soul immediately and take full control of this guy’s mind. I showed this in one of my favorite scenes, which seems completely meaningless at first sight and looks like a failed horror moment. But it's actually not that simple. Because this scene contains references to the character’s past. To something that was erased from his memory for one reason or another. Something that could explain his strange behavior. But something that the guy pushes away desperately, even when it tries stubbornly to break through the barricade. And the "something", as it turns out, has been walking side by side with him all this time, but the only person who can see it is him.
          
          Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day!
          Love, Estrella Rose.
          
          Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/story/395134099-the-criminal-diaries
          Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0

After the heartbreaking chaos happening in the previous parts of "The Criminal Diaries", Chapter 30 has the characters mourning. Yes, the antagonist and his loyal gang have been arrested and will finally get their sentence for everything they have done. Yes, the guys managed to survive in hell thanks to unity, determination, and fearlessness. But… None of the characters feels better. They failed the mission of saving the girlfriend of the lead male character. The co-lead male characters are ashamed to even look into the eyes of their girlfriends, who are devastated by their friend's death after they broke the promise and failed the mission. But they have no choice but to pull themselves together because they understand that they are needed not only by their girlfriends and friends, but also by each other.
          
          The lead male character, on the one hand, is consumed by unbearable sorrow and cries his heart out at the thought that his girlfriend is gone. But on the other hand… His fierce battle with his friends and the antagonists did not put an end to his possession by demons. He did not get rid of them. And he literally gave the dark entity full freedom. Full control over his mind. The character no longer controls any of it. Under the influence of the devils, he swears to take revenge on everyone and everything. He claims that he has become someone new. Someone he was supposedly meant to be from birth. And no one can stop this transformation. Because there is no one left by his side. He is alone now. At his will. Because everyone is guilty in his eyes. His best friends instantly turned into his biggest enemies. Betrayers, who he thought became the reason why he lost the most precious thing he ever had. Betrayers, whom he would sacrifice without hesitation if it gave him a chance to bring his girlfriend back to life.
          
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          Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0

Hello, my sweet estrellitas! By posting this unplanned post, I would like to tell you about a new soundtrack released in honor of my birthday. It’s called "CTRL+X" and became the soundtrack for "The Broken Hearts Story" from the "Stronger Together" series. This is one of several songs I wrote back in the spring, but I could not find the right moment to release it. According to my idea, this song plays during one of the scenes in Chapter 18 of this book, for which I wanted to write something for a long time. Even though the result is not perfect (just like always, huh), I’m still very happy with what I created and consider this song one of my personal favorites.
          
          By the way, in case you did not know, this keyboard combination allows you to cut selected text or elements in Windows. So, the meaning of the song is that someone can try to erase you, cut you, suppress you, and break you as much as they want, but you won’t give up and will keep moving on to reach your goal, no matter what anyone does. In this case, the song is sung from the perspective of young men dreaming of becoming rock musicians, who drive everyone crazy, and refusing to give up on their biggest dream, even if fate does not rush to help them.
          
          I'm saying goodbye now, but I'll come back soon since the publication of "The Criminal Diaries" is still continuing, and I'm planning to release another soundtrack in a couple of weeks. It's going to be really different from all previous songs of mine. Though it's the one I am absolutely in love with, I won’t hide it. And here's a little secret: it will come out closer to the end of December, some time before the New Year. Not much longer to wait. So stay with me and follow all the updates.
          
          Thank you for your attention!
          Have a nice day!
          Love, Estrella Rose.
          
          CTRL+X (English): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lcXgm3wmEIw
          CTRL+X (Russian): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JBqEpdnnQzQ
          
          Lyrics: https://www.wattpad.com/story/369110799-stronger-together-song-book