Estrogenous

I treated this girl in college so bad just because she was kinda ugly and looking back it feels like I was mentally impaired, like bro.

They should invent a pill that lets you cry.

I realized no one truly gaf when I was around other queer people and I had clear self-harm marks on my forearm. I'm talkin visible from a mile away and no one even bothered to ask me what those are.  People will genuinely just let you die if you have nothing "of value" to offer to them.

My OCD used to act like a kind of failsafe for my depression, no matter how shit I felt I could always rely on my impulses to keep things clean, orderly and to be able to present myself well. Now I don't even have the energy to do that, I still get nervous from disorder because of my OCD, but I just can't be bothered, my room looks like shit, I look like shit and everything is a mess.

Finally, done with the depressive cr@p, time for a change in style!

I want to go back in time and fix everything.

My toxic trait is I think Star Wars could absolutely defeat Warhammer 40K, I don't know a lot about 40K but from what I have gathered their planet destroying technology is kinda crap, like they can destroy the surface and they can only destroy the whole planet in steps. 
          
          Star Wars has the Death Star, which destroys a whole planet, and they can create multiple of these, it also has the Starkiller which can destroy 5 planets from solar systems away, it also has  the New Order Fleet, which counts I guess, its stupid but its technically cannon and its absolutely ridiculous. And if we count Legends we have the Sun Crusher, which literally destroys entire solar systems, and there are no downsides or internal backlash to destroying planets in another Galaxy. 
          
          The Star Wars Galaxy has also been canonically unified more often then not, either a Republic or an Empire is like five times larger then any one faction in 40K, which is a hopelessly disunified Galaxy, the Separatists alone had quadrillions of droids, the trillions of soldiers of the Imperium is a drop in the bucket to that.
          
          So what I am imagining is the Star Wars Galaxy nuking the shit out of 40K and perhaps allying with something like the Tau, and repelling any attack from the disunified factions with overwhelming numbers of incorruptible droids.

My favourite part about human interactions is when social principles and standards only apply to the other guy, and by the other guy I mean the guy you don't like and by societal principles only the ones which happen to advantage you the most in the moment.

Enough grieving, time to get over my emotionally ret@rd*d ex-friends and move on with new things in life.

Conspiracy theories but realistic:
          
          Hollow Earth - Giant aquatic cave systems in between the crust and plates, with tiny ancient animals, as old or older then the dinosaurs, because they were protected by all the crazy sh*t on the surface.
          
          Aliens visiting earth - Aliens visiting us to like...refuel or something...maybe dropped some weird cog by accident and we think its an ancient artifact.
          
          Ancient advanced civilization - We find a settler-agricultural city, no, not with jet engines, just older then Gobekli Tepe, like 10,000 years ago or something.
          
          The world is run by a secret elite of satanic pedophiles who are willing to sacrifice their very humanity for the sake of power and control - They literally make TED talks and Self-Help books about it, it's not secret.
          
          Moon Landing was Faked - They landed on the moon, lost the footage/camera didn't work, so they had to fake the footage.
          
          The earth is flat - From a phenomenological perspective...
          
          Nibiru will hit earth - In like a billion years.