@Jinisprettierthanyou I really want the things to turn out the way I want them to (at least to some extent) after I graduate in the next two years. Although I don't have anything decided on what field I feel comfortable enough in for college studies, I really want it all to work out. It's not just because of my parents putting expectations on me, but because I know how my brain works when I'm faced with difficult situations. It shuts down and I start to withdraw myself from everyone.
I live in a society where if you fail once, no one bothers to see another chance in you. And I hate to say that about a country that I belong to. Most Asian countries harbour that mindset and there's no one to blame in the clear picture for this mindset. Sometimes when a thought like that crosses my mind, I realise how I myself harbour that way of thinking too. It saddens me but it's the reality. The pressure of succeeding is high as there's only a low percentage of the millions that work hard to make it through so the familial expectations for the younger generation are not really that wrong either.
I find solace in Bangtan not just because of their message but because even after all the immense hardships and having so many people point fingers at them, they made it and are not afraid to spread this message.
Like Yoongi said in his lyrics, they all survived through the mud to bloom into a beautiful lotus. I hope that I also will be able to make it somewhere close to what both me and my family want because I want to support them too.
