@EternallyTrapped
I can’t
I just can’t anymore
The pressure has gotten to me
This facade is failing
The tears will start falling
And I will be left
B R O K E N
I’m sorry.
I’m so sorry.
I’m sorry I’m such a liar.
I need new friends. No one responds to my fucking texts!! It's a group chat with over a dozen flipping people and yet, no one acknowledges my existence!! Even IRL they don't notice me!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS GOIN' ON HERE?????
I am completely disappointed with myself in every possible way
Hooray for flippin' me!!
I want coffee
I need sleep
I want to read
I need to do homework
I want to be who I am
But people say that I "Need a life"
Life is just needs overwriting our ambitions and wants.
FUCK LIFE!!
Why do I feel the way I do?
Thousands, if not millions, of people feel the same way I do
So why do I think that I'll get special treatment?
Why do I think that someone will notice me?
Why the fuck do I think that I matter more than anyone else?
Why in the actual hell do I matter?
I wake up
But I don’t feel like I did
My eyes feel dead
My bones are tired
My brain is still stuck on a loading screen
What would it feel like to actually live?
To actually wake up without being constantly confused, rude, or stupid?
I stare at the glowing screen, trying to make out what the symbols sprawled on my screen are saying.
I can’t read them.
My brain is dead.
I should’ve done my homework but I’m a shitty child. All I do is lie and cut corners.
I want to sleep for eternity and never wake up.
I wish that I could give advice to others, but then I’d have to follow some of that that advice.
Life is ultimately meaningless.
We live only to die.
We learn only to forget.
We love only to hate.
Meaningless is life, and life is meaningless.