PART FIVE:
Today has been bad for me,today was a good day for me.I feel empty inside me.sometimes I wonder,what did I do wrong?I feel sad Iam lonely I have no one in my life all friends I had in my childhood are gone to other parts in Nenya;Afrika.Iam lonely,Iam trying to escape this situation it feels like that you are on hanging on a wood which is floating on water, trying to survive while rain,cold and night dominated the place what makes it worse there is no light to guide.Will there be a happy ending? Sometimes.People think it is a small thing why are you depending on electricity why can't you live without it?You are asking me why I can't live without electricity?You are saying your life revolves around electricity can't you focus on other things?I can do other things but I'm not interested in those things.
I miss my childhood life,I felt save in my childhood people used to love me now no one knows if I still exist this reminds me about a young little boy who was a young boy who got beaten up because he was sleeping during baseball game,he met his future self he said to the steak or meat "you are my only friend." He said while sitting on his bed,he agreed what someone said about him or something.He bugged the meat his voice and tone broke me and his future self.This is what I'm facing currently this is my life right now,this is my life in general I had no true friends growing up even though I had friends.