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@stargirlpjm good take one fanfiction at a time slow and easy...

@stargirlpjm  okay fine then let's talk at evening cause I would have been helping my mom in work today so let's talk in evening then alright let's talk till my tablet can hold it together...

@EtherealJikook And yeah, I'm surely taking a good break. I only have one fanfic to write now so I'm less stressed about that. 

@stargirlpjm  what happened???

@EtherealJikook It's normal in winter! Take care of yourself too! And have a nice day! Bye bye ❤️

@stargirlpjm   well here is cold too but I m still in half sleeves yeah I catch cold in morning too when I used to woke in morning 1 year before... 
            
            
            take care okay don't be careless,..❤️

@stargirlpjm I slept at about 9:30 am woke up at 4pm roaming here and there in house taking a bath study a little before dinner now after dinner talked to you from 11pm I m gonna study till 5am 

@EtherealJikook What about you? What are you doing and how was your day?

@stargirlpjm  good enjoy yourself...❤️

@EtherealJikook Aww, thank you so much! You're so sweet! 
            
            I absolutely understand what you mean and I'm not freaking out at all, it's just i can't understand my mind sometimes and my brain doesn't feel like it's mine. But I'm okay now and i don't give a fuck about what people say or think about me. They don't know me at all, they haven't been in my shoes so ofcourse I won't let their words affect me! 
            
            And your messages always put a smile on my face, thanks for understanding and taking time to reply to my message :) 
            
            I love you more!! (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)❤️

@stargirlpjm  Well yk what I read your this message like 6 to 7 times and genuinely I would say I just can't it's too heartbreaking I was stuck whole night can't do anything thought about it... It's really heartbreaking...
            
            
            But listen to me focus on my words you're not ill or anything... Don't freak out listen completely first...
            
            Things people say around you affects you the most try as much as you can to control your emotions ik it's hard but start slowly understood take care of your mom too properly gently...
            
            It could feel like no one give you the solution you wants but sometimes the solution isn't that what you want and one more thing don't fill your mind with these thoughts everytime be happy try not to let it control you... how could a damn illness can control a whole human body just say no again and again when it says yes... Can you just try I know maybe I would look like a fool blabbering nonsense but trust me just try please...
            
            
            Last thing I don't know how much did you understand my message but I told you what I would've told to my younger sister so beleive in yourself have faith and be strong not let anything let you down alright...
            
            
            I m always here whenever you feel like pouring your heart ... And I m really glad if I could help you comfort you laugh with you in any means...
            
            
            Take care of yourself and aunty too okay...❤️
            
            Smile now ... Don't sulk just smile big... That's my girl.
            
            Love you my strawberry...❤️
            
            
            
            

@EtherealJikook I can feel you. I'm having such a hard time dealing with ADHD as well. I can't get therapy because of financial problems and my mom's mentally ill so there's no chance for me to heal in the house that broke me and traumatized me. 
            
            I guess I'm stuck with this illness for life. I can't do anything at all. Even slightest thing ruins my mood and changes my behaviour like I'm some kind of bipolar bish. 
            
            My dad jokingly said "you're mentally ill like your mom" he said it jokingly but it actually hurted so much and i wondered if I was going insane or something. 
            
            I can't understand my brain sometimes and I hate myself that I can't change it, I'm not able to change it even if I want to. 
            
            But ofcourse, writing is an escape for me and I do it so I don't get wrong or any shady kind of thoughts. But sometimes, I feel so irritated with the lack of attention from readers that I end up unpublishing the book. I don't understand this at all. But I guess... This is how I am. No one understands me at all.

@stargirlpjm  ofcourse love I m way more fine but yeah I catch cold too fast too but for now I m okay...
            
            
            Yeah here is diwali house cleaning is going on too... I m excited...
            

@EtherealJikook Good morning, cherry!! 
            
            Yes, my hand has gotten much better and my finger isn't hurting or aching anymore. I'll ofcourse take care of myself and you do the same on your side <3 
            
            You too, take care of yourself and stay hydrated! It's getting cold in here since winter is arriving and after Diwali (a festival, you must know) it's gonna get a lot cold. In having constant cold and coughing :( 
            But I'll drink warm water and stay careful, you do the same, okay? 
            
            Love you more!! ❤️

@EtherealJikook Yes, my finger is finally in good health now. Thanks for understanding! 
            
            I'm taking good care of myself, and I hope you do too!! 
            
            
            I hope you are doing well though and I love you more <3 

@stargirlpjm oh love please take care of yourself...
            
            No need to say sorry first take proper care of yourself...
            
            Love you too my darling be safe my clumsy Queen...❤️
            

@stargirlpjm  did you took medicine??? 
            
            Take proper rest food and care and be healthy and fit perfectly okay 
            
            Love you...❤️

@EtherealJikook Oh yes, it's because I was suffering from cold and cough, i still have a faint cough and blocked nose. I'll update it tomorrow <3 

@EtherealJikook I was having a cold yesterday and today my nose was blocked. On top of that, there was an electricity blocker that's why I was just taking a rest. 

@stargirlpjm  thankyou love❤️

@EtherealJikook Character ai is really dangerous. I don't know much about it but I've seen people saying in Instagram that it's creepy and all. But it's your decision if you wanna use it or not. 

@stargirlpjm  darling I wanna have a suggestion from you tell me: 
            
            Recently I came across the app character.ai   I wanna ask should I use it or not lemme tell you whole thing I downloaded it first and used there is bts characters and much more are there I liked it and as it is ai so basically privacy was okay too now don't know what came into me fearing of getting addicted to it I deleted the account now I m restraining myself from using but my mind keep forcing so should I use it or not help me....
            
            
            I m really confused my love...T_T