Hi guys, it's with a heavy heart that I'm writing this message...
I started my ChunJoe fanfiction, 'We Are Not A Joke', maybe a year ago(?) and for the first year, I really enjoyed writing it. I loved adding new chapters to it, and seeing how you guys interacted with my made-up scenarios (which I'm really grateful for the amount of support 'We Are Not A Joke' has received). But, as time went on and more and more things started happening in my life, I found it harder to update the story...
Due to computer malfunctions, I lost the entire plan for the rest of the story, meaning I was having to re-draft everything each time I wanted to update... In the end, I really didn't have the time, but the amount of attention it was receiving put pressure on me to update.
Eventually, it got to the stage where it became no fun to write anymore. I wasn't enjoying it, I didn't like where the story was headed (and since I lost my plans I couldn't get back my original idea for the story) and it was more a burden than something I wanted to do.
I haven't posted in a long time, because I was trying to free some time to update, and then I thought to myself; 'Well, what's the point? If I'm not even passionate about writing it anymore then I might as well not bother.' And then I had to take more time to think about this. Did I want to stop writing? How would you guys respond if I never finished it? I've already discontinued another series because I grew bored of writing it. What if I've lost my writing abilities? I couldn't stop worrying about things like this (because I have anxiety, I over-think a LOT of things).
In the end I came to the decision that, no matter what, I will not be completing 'We Are Not A Joke'. I will be discontinuing it as of now.
I'm really sorry to everyone who followed me for just that story...
I will be starting another series in the future (hopefully) unrelated to ChunJoe and I hope you will support me with that~
~AlishaTheOtaku