JamesGodwin

While people see mornings as mornings of joy and blessings, I cant help to see it as a curse. The world is full of fuckery. 

I  going to pursue this hobby. Somewhere within the deepeat corners of my insecurities and anxiety, i will find the courage to write and publish stories here. And i hope you lots support me.

Have you ever felt like, like things just dont seem right. Like every aspect of your existence just doesnt fit in. Because thats just how i feel most of the time. Its as if, i am that embodiment of mistake. A walking disaster others might say. But dont get me wrong. This is not a writing to draw your sympathies. The last thing I want is people pitying me for who I am. I mean, i really cant do anything about it now can I? 
          
          Back to my subject, when I wake up everyday the first thought that visits my mind is "Why am I still awake?". I mean i gave up on living a long time ago. Ever since I realized that I am nothing but a screw up I embraced that reality and gave up the thought that my life can get any better. And what i hate the most is that people treat my pleas as nothing but conjectures. They even tell me to just get over it and that i should be thankful. "Other people have it worse." Screw that thought right?! I mean cant I not feel pain? Am i not allowed to feel sorrow? Am I that bad that i dont deserve to be consoled? Because with 21 years of existing I grew tired of fighting the real world. Sure Im fortunate enought to get to eat three meals a day, a roof to sleep in. But the fucking demons in my head just wont fucking stop. And people, I aint got more to give. Im all out bitches.
          
          And today, when those couple that gave birth to me told me straight in the face how I was indeed a screw up and that how I was a great disappointment to them, they took the remainder of my will to love and to live. I have nothing else to say to this world. To make it simple, I quit.
          
          Im sorry to take up your notification space but i just had to let it out you know? Otherwise i might hurt myself. Again.
          
          Anyways if you dont hear from me soon, just assume the worst. 
          
          Again. Thank you for your time. You all will be missed.

Hey this is really random but I’ve seen ur comments on the dashboards of some of my favourite authors on here n I just want to say you seem like such a beautiful soul and I really appreciate you. Hope u have a wonderful new year!

Hi, can you please check out my work? :)

I am a huge fan of Shawn Mended too :)

Thank you for all the lovely votes and thoughts about Happy Valentine Day. The story was written to touch hearts and I am glad to hear your comments about it :)

Thank you for following me!
          I hope you enjoy  reading my work.
          I would love to hear your thoughts regarding the stories.
          Have a great happily ever after :)

Hey have you seen the show on the wings of love. I mean you mentioned that in your description that you are a philiphine so....I liked your reading list by the way and cinderelliot is awesome...

Have you all read the work Plottery? I cant seem to find it anymore. Do you know what happened to the book? If you have a link please send me. Thank you.