I'm terrified to go back to school on Monday. I'm already having suicidal thoughts on a daily basis and it gets so much worse with the stress and added anxiety brought on by *shudders* high school. Winter break had been the closest thing I've had to, well, a break! It's only a matter of time before someone notices how I'm acting at school and calls social services or something…
On the last day before winter break, my counselor noticed I was wearing black eyeshadow under my eyes, an attempted Virgil cosplay. She called the nurse because she thought I had a black eye and made me ruin my eyeshadow. Then they called the resource officer and had me talk about my trauma… and I know than when I go back it's going to get so much worse. I hate this. I hate my school. I hate myself. I hate @-_CamoKing_- for doing this to me…