What even is life

I legit forget that I wrote a over 100k words worth of fanfiction and I’m like who did this? I legit forget how I could possibly write that much in like less than a year and now I’m like how?! It’s so weird, like who wrote that? Not me(it was me).

I have officially discontinued my two stories Different Paths and Villain Twin Sis. 
          Sorry to those who followed for those stories, I just figured since I stopped writing for a year I’d discontinue it. 
          
          I’ll still write FanFiction, just not for the Bnha fandom anymore and of course those two stories. 
          
          I will probably write cursed fan fictions.
          
          Hope you have a nice day and sorry.

Hold on when did I get 211 followers?!
          I haven’t posted a new chapter in ages and y’all just keep rolling in :’) 
          
          Anyway, I’ve been doin ok. Just graduated high school, I also almost failed English which was fun. Still can’t believe I’m so close to being a legal adult. Gonna find a job at some point, who knows might even move out when I’m ready. I honestly have no idea what I’m gonna do with my life.
          
          Have a nice day guys.

I’m worried. I think somethings wrong with me.
          
          I haven’t been wanting to eat lately, and I’ve been sleeping a lot more often. It’s reminding me of what happened last summer. Where I just couldn’t get up because I couldn’t muster up any motivation.
          
          I’m wondering if I’m loosing the will to keep myself alive. I don’t want to die, but I don’t seem to want to live either.
          
          I don’t know what I’m feeling, but I know it’s not good.
          
          Anyway, I just wanted to vent. This may be a reason I haven’t written in so long, I feel bad that I’m not writing my story cause I really should finish my stories.
          
          Have a good day.

. . . . Why have I now noticed that Izukus villain twin sis is close to having 100k views
          
          When did I even first publish that story, it felt like it was decades ago when really it was at least 2 years 
          
          I should really update it, I planned out the next few arcs and ending. But I’m too lazy to write the next chapter. . . I’m just making excuses at this point

When will you update your story? I have loved reading it so far. :D

pleasw update izukus villan twin siss

There is something calming that happens to me 
          But it’s kinda creepy
          
          When I am laying in bed and spacing out I hear breathing, breathing that isn’t my own you know
          
          It’s hard to explain but it sounds like someone sleeping, a nice peaceful sleep
          
          It’s calming and relaxing to hear it, the inhale and exhale of this mysterious being
          
          . . . . But I don’t know where it’s coming from so it’s kinda creepy

I never had the urge to hurt people as much as this, I’m said to be a listener by friends and family
          
          But I’m tired of listening to people spewing bull crap as people are getting hurt or even dying at protests
          
          I’m waking up at 4 am for days now and my mind is filled with brewing plans that will never come to light
          
          But for some reason, I can’t stop watching the pain
          
          I can’t stop watching the injustice that’s happening
          
          I’m wondering how my mental health is doing, it’s not something I can easily check on until I have a breakdown
          
          I’m angry, I’m scared, and not surprisingly I’m so tired
          
          Sorry I just needed to rant and this is the only place I can say how I feel without having terrible consequences and not be interrupted 
          
          I’m going to attempt to sleep now

Bruh, I dislike my Mom, like a lot
          One could even say I even hate her
          
          So earlier, or more like less than an hour ago my Mom decided to try and readjust my brothers posture cause he was slouching in his seat you know
          
          Other than just telling him to sit up straight she just started readjusting him without warning 
          Keep in mind her hands were on his back and chest 
          
          He says “don’t touch me!” And she gets this confused angry look
          I was watching this and hoped she would respect the statement but oh no she tried doing it again with more aggression 
          
          Keep in mind she’s drunk
          
          He says “I said don’t touch me!” While leaning away from her, guys he was on the brink of tears right now
          
          And she acts like he just peed in her cereal
          
          So I say “mom, he clearly doesn’t want you to touch him” 
          
          She continues to stare him down and say “you were all affectionate a while ago.” 
          
          So I chirp in “Mom, right now he doesn’t want to be touched. Respect his boundaries” 
          
          Then all hell breaks loose
          
          Here’s some quotes from her
          
          “I respect all my kids boundaries!”
          “Just 5 hours ago he wanted hugs!”
          “Do you even know how boundaries work!”
          “I’m not gonna be told off by a 16 year old liberal”
          “You don’t work for sh*t”
          “Whose gonna pick you up when you fail?!”
          “Who’s gonna pay for your bills”
          “Get school done!”
          “You don’t deserve what I give you!”
          “Don’t tell me what you guys deserve! I decide that!”
          
          And so on and so fourth while screaming
          Keep in mind I’m just staring at her in silence, just making eye contact
          
          My heart was pounding, I was scared cause she has had a domestic violence charge and she’s drunk
          
          Now I’m in my room, my door locked
          
          Wondering what will happen tomorrow 
          
          I’m tired