It's my final court date coming up so I thought I would update everyone on life. I have a pretty extensive criminal record, ranging from TWOC (stealing a car), soliciting and assaulting a police officer.
NONE of which I am proud of, but all of which are a part of me. This is the story of what it is like as an ex-criminal trying to sort her life out, I face judgement, gossiping and mistrust everyday of my life and this is how it feels...
Everyday is made difficult for me because of my past. I know it is all my fault, but the more I try to let people know I have changed the more people seem to ignore me, judge me or just laugh in my face.
About 4 months ago was the last time I was arrested; I had stolen a van, driven it up and down the country, gotten caught and then assaulted a police officer who tried to handcuff me. Shortly after this I was sectioned under the Mental Health Act which made me re-assess my life. From then on I have been (near enough) straight edge. The psychiatric hospital where I was detained put me into contact with social workers, drugs workers and the Youth Offending Team who I am now working closely with. I'm now clean of ALL drugs, am (pretty much) teatotal and have got a part time job as a waitress. All I dream of now is becoming a nurse, so I can help other teenagers in the same position as me.
I have just arranged to meet the police officer I assaulted (to be fair all I did was spit on his boot - doesn't add up to assault in my books but anyway...) to ask him to drop the charges. I doubt it will get me anywhere but I am still going to try. I want to show him I have changed but it is so hard now, because no-one takes young people seriously. I'm studying psychology at college and it is quite eye opening to see how much people act like sheep! One person says someone is a bad apple, and everyone believes them.
Sorry for the useless post, just thought I would update people!! Hope everyone is good :) xx
