ExceptHolistic

hi, saja disini saya mahu memberitahu bahawa saya rindu nak baca karya awak 

I've gotten a lot of dms, posts, and comments regarding the deletation of the fic. None of them were bad ones, just expressing their gratitude/sadness on my fics and/or bargaining with me to keep the fics up on ao3 or smth. 
          
          I'm just writing this to say for all those that said I was their inspiration writer, that I'm honoured to be regarded in such high standards. And most of them said that they're now writing because of me and having the confidence to post bcs of me and I think that is rather beautiful. 
          
          Writers should inspire young writers to start even if they start on writing fanfiction, little poems, short stories, essays or whatever it is you're starting with. I'm glad that some of you chose me to inspire all of you. 
          
          Here I want to say that I am always open to be a beta reader for somebody and/or just a grammar checker or whenever they feel like their lines in a book just isn't quite right. 
          
          Even though English is not my mother language, I've been blessed to say that I could speak the language fluently and grammatically correct ever  since I was 10 and that I'm willing to help any writers struggling out there. 
          
          This goes for all of you that thinks you aren't able to write a good book/fic because you are afraid of someone judging your grammatical errors. Here for all of you's babess!! 
          
          My dms are always open for all of you my lurvess!! ♡♡

aku sedih. your one of the few artists that i enjoy reading phc from because theres only a few of this books that exists.. im currently writing now but im not going to publish.. i've read this a few days ago, and i enjoy it tbh , got me giggling like perempuan sot yk HAHAH 

10. Hakeem/Kahar (one sided)
          [Act Fine.]
          
          -I love everything about this fic.
          -Every single thing
          -The title, the plot, the heartbreak, the plot twists
          -Even I was shocked at what my head came up with to just break down such a sunny and bright character into a dark, numb, uncaring one
          -Amir and Zahrin coming in clutch to give you a bit of hope 
          -Only for it to get crushed down again when Kahar revealed to not care
          -And when Hakeem found the Kahar/Naim pairing kissing behind the school
          -I love how it breaks you apart
          -My favourite chapter/oneshot in this book
          
          11. Azam/Fakhri 
          [In The Limelight]
          
          -Title makes nk sense actually
          -It just sounded good
          -Just a soft hazy midnight-morning with Fakhri and Azam 
          -The mandhandling got me giggling and twirling my feet even when I was the one writing em'
          
          12. Kahar/Fakhri
          [Extra Biology Lessons]
          
          -A breakthrough with that title
          -Thought of a good plot but realized it had to be smut halfway through
          -The tensionnn
          -Kahar submitting 
          -Kahar on his knees, waiting for instructions 
          -The 'Come back if you need me anytime' line by Fakhri- jighdyislqbejekdn
          -The confession at the end
          
          And that concludes all 12 chapters that I had managed to write ever since February. Phc ended and so is this book going to be. 
          
          Wonderful, Incredible journey with you all, have a safe and remarkable day!! 
          
          THANK YOU TO ALL MY LURVES THAT HAS SUPPORTED ME IN EVERYTHINGG I LOVE YOU AND I HOPE WE CAN MEET AGAIN IN BETTER CIRCUMSTANCES ❤❤

4. Kahar x Reader
          [The First Eve]
          
          -I loved myself for that title
          -The chapter starts immediately with a fight
          -The progression of slowly other's falling for her
          -All of Azam's scenes
          -The Kahar canteen scene
          -The meeting and njet steng
          -THE GODDAMN CAP
          -Fully considered turning it into a Zahrin x Reader at this line,
           'She stepped into the hall and the lights shining made her squint. She held her hand up to block out the light. 
          
          Suddenly there was a hand in front of hers, helping her blocking it out. 
          
          She turned to see the hand's owner and saw a charming smiled guy wearing streetwear baseball styled shirt.' HES SO SWEET I- AIWHDJBSHJED
          -Was not confident while writing it but it turned out better than I expected
          
          5. Kahar/Hakeem 
          [Trust]
          
          -Him loosing and taking it out on Hakeem
          -Hakeem not even caring that Kahar hurts him and keeps running back to the other 
          -The Kiss
          -Kahar treating the bruise and cuddling after that
          
          6. Kahar x Reader pt2
          [Adam and Eve]
          
          -Again, that title? Oscar worthy
          -The cute date ep
          -The fortune teller
          -Kahar recording
          -The gift at exchange at the end 
          
          7. Kahar/Hakeem (smut)
          [No, Maybe, Yes]
          
          -Figured the title was relating to the dubcon thing
          -Their batchmate backing them up
          -Hakeem getting hard at their close proximity
          -Kahar's name screaming kink
          -The soft aftercare ❤
          
          8. Azam x Reader
          [With You]
          
          -The continuity of the universe I created from the Kahar x reader one
          -A tough girlie falling for a soft Azam
          -The entire dating under the moonlit night scene
          
          9. Azam/Fakhri
          [Comfort Place]
          
          -Fakhri fondly watching Azam gets frustrated
          -Fakhri washing Azam's hair for him
          -Their unofficial official dating banter with each other
          -Fakhri sulking because he wanted cuddles but Azam's hair was still wet
          -The cuddles 

In honour of the deletation of the fic, I've gathered every little thing I love about each chapter, you're welcome to do the same in the comments!
          
          1. Kahar/Hakeem 
          [Ssick]
          
          -Title inspired by a Stray Kids song and fic I read once
          -  'As soon as he broke the eye contact, Kahar's eyes immediately wandered and flickered all over Hakeem. Eyes sharpened and aware.' Kahar checking out Hakeem
          - ' Fortunately, as if sensing Hakeem's discomfort, Kahar deliberately walked slow.'  The bare minimum
          - 'Kahar's voice rang in his ears. He felt himself being picked up. Bridal style.'  Little bridal style moment
          -Basically the whole hospital scene and spoon feeding and everything
          
          2. Amir/Naim
          [Nightmare]
          
          -Hugely inspired by anemouser3's one
          - This whole line 
          'Amir took notice of this and put his left hand on Naim's thigh. The settled weight calmed the bouncing leg at once. Amir slowly massaged Naim's thigh. His eyes searching for Naim's.
          
          Naim looked away and gulped again. 
          He was grateful for the dark as it hid his red ears.'  Naim blushing over the hand on his thigh
          -Naim wanting Amir to come and massage his back but was too embarrased to say it out loud
          -The cuddles 
          
          3. Amir/Naim
          [Desk Light]
          
          -Naim worrying about Amir and his health. 
          -The fainting scene in the lab
          -The people talking behind Naim's back
          -The little pillow fight
          -Cuddles and the ending line, 'And he never found Naim's desk light again.'

I've read ur latest post, I hope you post ur phc fics on ao3, and make it so that only people with acc there can access the stories, since it's pretty safe there? and also I hope other writers will do the same too

Okay yalls!! Idk if you've heard esp. my new followers but anemouser3 is taking down their book for fear of it getting sued and/or leaking to the actors that are involved. 
          
          Now, Imma need all of yall to stay REALLL QUIET if you guys like this oneshot book because I can't guarantee the permanence of this book if the one I was inspired by is taken down by the author already for those reasons. 
          
          So, if you wanna share the book it's fine but let's keep this between us alright? Getting sued isn't on my bingo this year and I wouldn't like that on my conscious. 
          
          And I just wanna come around and say that I can't accept and do every requests that has been thrown to me, I have said this on my story desc as I'm not comfortable writing a few things. 
          
          Granted, all of you have been so nice in giving requests and stuff but just a healthy reminder that I'm a person too behind all these words that I type and I have my own boundaries. 
          
          Summary: I don't wanna get sued, keep this book hush-hush, I can't do every requests and I love yall <333 have a wonderful night/day!!

You guys are so adorable?!?!?! I have been rereading requests and the comment section on my works lately and you're all so cuteeee >.< calling me your fav author and telling me to take my time??? 
          You guys are literally the bestt <333 >.< 
          
          Ayam x reader coming soon bestiess!! 

I'm so distraught over Ayam's death  and I'm on my period so it's like a double kill, been crying at the edits for the past hour now 
          
          It will be a late update to say the least everyone, i'm too emotionally unstable rn