EXTRA_AF

Y'all, okay so I'm in a class where we have to wear uniforms for certain inspections and shit, and today we were getting ribbons and metals put on them. Context: Almost every girl in that class is gay (including me). So the other day I re-told the whole class I was gay, which I thought I told them but apparently not ‍♀️, anyway, there was these two girls (gay obviously) that were the most surprised. And they also said something along the lines of them being able to hook me up with some people they know (but I think they were talking about themselves). 
          
          Anyway, fast forward to today, I needed help putting my uniform's metals and ribbons on because it's my first year in that class. And as you know metals on uniforms go on the breast part of the jacket. And the Teacher told one of the girls, that I was talking about, to help me. And Y'ALL, when I tell you she was smiling so hard, and I couldn't stop smiling because she was smiling. BRO I AM SO GAY!!! And ever since the time I've told those girls I was gay, not second went past that I saw them looking at me!! 
          
          That was my rant, Bye!!!!! 

I relapsed, not feeling too good. Had dinner with my cousin and sister and felt better than I have all week. 

I woke up late for school and was almost late, ran and slid while also scraping my hands in the process, and did I mention that was in front of my whole class!? 
          
          If this isn't a sign to commit die this week I don't know what is.
          
          Crying 

To be completely transparent, I am more than surprised I didn't relapse this week. I was up all night crying and didn't go to sleep until 7:00am. Then I had to wake up at 9:00am to get ready for fucking church even though I felt like shit. I also wore a dress today!? (which is new to me because I despise dresses with my life)
          
          But that was my week ✌️