Tw: Rotting and maggots and gross things
I don't know how to start this. But, I feel like the world around me is rotting in a sense, and like I'm rotting too. Whenever I pick up a glass, I think to myself, " The glass is going to have maggots in it." Whenever I eat food, especially in my house, there's a sense of ' this is bad and going to hurt me.' Sometimes I feel like I'm rotting, like something is eating me from the inside out, and I'm just numb. Other times, I wish I was rotting. I wish I was just a corpse in the park with the sun shining down on me. Whenever I touch a bennie baby stuffed animal, I think to myself, " There's spider eggs in this thing, and I'm going to die when they hatch."
They're just stupid irrational fears, but they coat just about everything I think. Sometimes, I feel like there's something eating my brain, like bugs or something, consuming me like a meal.
I don't think this is normal
