FairyTailFanPan18
I finally figured out a sexuallity/identity label that I think fits me. I figured out that I am panromantic, and greysexual. now I just gotta figure out my whole gender stuff and i'll be set ugh, that'll be hard
FairyTailFanPan18
FairyTailFanPan18
This weekend I've been a mess. My Mother has cancer. Even though she has been the worst parent I've ever seen and so many things are wrong I'm scared to have children and be like her, (hitting me, telling me she never loved me, convinced me I should not been born before I was even 12, etc), and I'd never come out to her even at gunpoint for fear of what she would do would break me apart. I'm still really upset at the prospect of loosing her. Not even sure what stage it is for another week or so, but it's not good. I just wish I could hate her, maybe id stop crying.
FairyTailFanPan18
gonna come out to my cousin by this time tomorrow, wish me luck!
FairyTailFanPan18
he wrote me back (we've been using e-mail to chat) and was very good about it. (I wrote in the subject line 'this is hard so I'm doing it by memes', and just used a couple memes to explain it) Idk why I was so anxtious about it, I guess because the last time anyone in my family found out it was my aunt around halloween (she found my facebook where I don't hold back)and she barely talks to me so I still have no idea how she feels, she isn't homophobic I think, but she doesn't like it when someone isn't her religion -which I'm an atheist sooo- alternatively, my cousin (her niece who she practically raised) is okay with the nonreligious thing, but very homophobic. I just felt crushing anxiety and it was hard to breathe and swallow, I want to be open but I know I'll loose most of my closest family-and probably be kicked out by my parents or worse *shivers*) I wish it was different, its like i'm trying to shove down part of myself constantly and it makes me so sad and uncomfortable.
DickGraysonFangirl
@FairyTailFanPan18 I really hope everything will be okay, but really you still have us here, if anything goes wrong
RNGD_Blue
@FairyTailFanPan18 Good luck! I hope everything goes well. And if it doesn't go well you can talk to me if you'd like.
FairyTailFanPan18
If someone else isn't being supported (in any way, for any reason) and would like a personal compliment/message in a comment, profile comment, pm, oneshot, etc. please tell me and a little about yourself , i'll get it out to you soon. if you want multiple/reoccuring let me know too I enjoy helping others
MiaSilver6Zhiying
@FairyTailFanPan18 that's so very sweet and wonderful of you dear^_^;-), do you read stories about Elves and Shifters?
ladyawesome45321
Why is it so much easier to find non judgmental people online than it is to find them in real life? And you're in a lot of the same fandoms as I am, too. So, that's even better. Well, I just read your bio and wanted to say you seem like a cool person. So...you seem like a cool person. Okay, toodles. Haha.
FairyTailFanPan18
P.s thanks for all the votes on my new poem/song thingys it means a lot someone took the time to read them and vote thx again bai.
FairyTailFanPan18
I’m not sure, maybe because ppl feel they can be more honest with themselves and others? At least for me. Cool I love to know more ppl into the same fandoms as me. Thanks for taking the time to read my bio, and saying I seem like a cool person. I don’t get many msg on here besides asking for reviews/thanks for votes and stuff so it means a lot, I think you seem like an awesome person as well. Bye
Ezmer15garcia
Hey!!
I'm not sure if u remember me but we share the same birthday (how cool is that!?) And I'm not sure if we live in the same time zone but where I am, it's currently already Sept. 18th soooooooo
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! ♡ and I really hope you have a great day :D
FairyTailFanPan18
@Ezmer15garcia oh course i remember you, birthday twin (that's really cool) i also don't know what timezone you live in, but i got this msg at 1:45 am (so abpout 5.5 hours ago this morning). Thanks for the msg, i hope today will be great for both of us. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!❤️