Sorry to hear that!! I’ve felt that way too and I’ve wanted a bf before too. I know how you feel. What helped me get through it was remembering my purpose in life: to serve God whole heartedly. Another thing that helped me get through was remembering how Jesus died for me even when I was sinning. Think about that, God willingly paid the ultimate sacrifice for YOU. He truly loves you enough die. You are loved even when you don’t feel it. As for the bf, if God wants you to have a bf, then he will give you one in due time. Perhaps, this waiting is a way to prepare yourself for your future husband. God may have given you this time of singleness to prepare you for when your future husband does show up. If you want to discuss a bit more, feel free to reach out. I’m all ears :))