I.... I just want this to be heard.. I'm legit crying I- I don't know where to start...
Also if you didn't know um.. Starting from tomorrow night GMT time, Malaysia is going to be on lock down we can't go all over the country, we can ONLY move within the state we're in. The problem IS that me, my dad and my siblings are planning to go and help my dad move to another state where my Grandma lives.
And if we don't move back to Kedah soon, we will be stuck at KL and my siblings can't go to school and neither can I...
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It's 12 am and tears are still falling down my face I can't.. I can't.. First, I'm gonna leave my bestie here AGAIN and my blue bandana is the ONLY memory of her and I barely contact her cus of school s! Second, things are just getting worse if I stay at Kedah with my mom and step fam. Third, the only thing keeping me alive is just smiling very weakly and stabbing my mechanic pencil into my left arm...
Why? Why can't we just have something normal that doesn't impact everyone in the world? Why.... This is why I have low expectations for 2021... Nothing ever change, do they?....