I know a lot is going on, but just in case you can only check on your phone I just wanted say that I sent you some messages. Most importantly my most recent two ( I'm hoping they have some good advice for you and your situation :( )
Also I'm a bit worried about the name change? It feels odd to me that your would choose that and I hope you're okay. I'm worried about you, but not as much as I have been.
(mostly through powerlessness though but I'm still happier than before, please don't worry about me)
Just wanted to let you know on here. If you want it, I can give you an internet hug.
(the only people I hug are my family, so I hope you know that even offering an internet one means a lot. You can say no though. It won't hurt my feelings if you find it silly or something like that)