FanFictionQueen

Okay, so I'm kind of freaking out. As most of you know I've been inactive for a while. But I did this in order to help my mental health state and help myself grow and heal the scars from my past. It worked, pretty well, but as I'm sure most of you can relate, the people at school just stop me from completely healing. Since I was young these people have left me out aka ostracized me, made me lose my spirit, made me think I'm ugly, they used me, they lied to me, they laughed at me, and they pretend I'm not there unless they need something. EVEN the teachers contribute to leaving me out. Some of the teachers act like they OWN the school and always flaunt their select group of students and when I accomplished great things, they wouldn't even recognize me.
          
          Last night I got the courage to tell my parents.... I sobbed and I cried and I admitted over how for the past YEARS I've felt pain and suffering, and for a good couple wanted to end it all but didn't. I admitted that I hated the school, that I'm not happy there, that I'm tired of being used and treated like I don't exist. I'm tired of people treating the girl who are the worst like they are sweet little angels. So, after Christmas, I'm transferring schools. Its not final, but I just feel like I shouldn't have said anything. It feels like a dream but also a nightmare because now they know. Not about this site, but about myself. I'm both happy and sad. I don't know if I did the right thing. But overall I would just like some support for this big change that I'm about to go through. I'm nervous and kinda scared, especially since I'm transferring mid-year. I'll be that kid....
          
          Wish me luck. And support. And maybe some words of advice. Not allowed to ell anyone I know know, but I thought I'd let some people know. I couldn't keep it to myself.

I have uploaded my new story, "The Blinds" onto both Archive of Our Own and on wattpad! Though, if you'd like to find the story on wattpad, it is under a new account @Hidden_Night_Writer . So please go check it out! First 3 chapters are published!

Go an follow my most recent story on AO3 called “The Blinds”! I am excited to bring this vampire story to my fans sand explore a new genre of writing!

If you want to show me some love on my birthday please go ahead and read my newest story!!

Happy Birthday to me!!!

Check out my newest book called "The Blinds." The preview and 2 chapters have been posted and more will be coming in the next coming weeks if I have time. Its an ongoing story and deals with vampires!!! If you're interested please go check it out on my page and tell me what you think.

This has been a tough night. The toughest night of my life. I’ve only seen my dad cry twice... and we’ve never cried together like this. Tomorrow at 8:30 a.m we put down my dog who has cancer, is partially paralyzed, and can’t breathe. And this came on in a matter of weeks and we didn’t know until 3-4 days ago...
          
          I broke up with my boyfriend too. It was time... my life is falling apart... My neighbor died too. 
          
          But the saddest thing... I regret I didn’t spend enough time with him. That my family dog is in pain... that all these memories of him from over the years come back throughout the day before he passes...
          
          I’ve cried more than I ever had today
          
          My heart hurts... I don’t know how to handle this grief.

Some days I really miss writing. And this is one of these days... a lot of the times I just want to sit down and write out a story and see all your wonderful reactions to cheer up my day. Writing makes me feel important. Gives me a sense of accomplishment. Gives me a family...
          
          Right now I'm in a depressed state... my dog might die soon and I'm taking it really badly. My heart hurts so bad. I know some of you fans understand how that feels. Any help on what to do?

I am currently writing a new book called: My Mate is a Fujoshi!
          
          The preview of the first chapter is currently up on my other account and here is the link for all of you to see if this is something you'd like to read. Please give it a try considering it is different from the other books I've made before.
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/138439579-my-mate-is-a-fujoshi
          
          Thank you all so much!

Okay, so if you've been following me for a while, you remember the last time I tried to get off wattpad officially and it only lasted 2 weeks. So, this time, I am getting off for good. Before you flip, let me explain and please don't get mad.
          
          I am getting off this time because of a decision I have to make. If you're religious and believe in God or not, this is the reason I'm getting off wattpad. God has pretty much presented a choice that has made itself clear to me over the past couple of months. I either choose my boyfriend, who makes me happy, is true to himself, and who gets me and accepts me for who I am (broken or not), or wattpad.
          
          Wattpad does mean a lot to me, and so do my stories, but this relationship is something I never dreamed I would have. I prayed every day since I was little and every time after I was beaten and hurt by my bullies that God would give me someone who accepts me for me. I believe now, God has delivered on that wish I asked for.
          I don't want to lose him; I can't lose him because he's the only person I've told about this other life of mine and he was willing to accept me into his arms without hesitation.
          My stories will still be up, everything will be left untouched. I will post my plans for unfinished stories, and post all the chapters I've written up until I have no more left.
          
          I know,  I'm young and some of you probably think this relationship I have won't last forever, but even if it doesn't, I would rather have him date me now and love every minute of him, than lose someone who we all wish we had by our side.
          
          Thank you for your understanding. I hope you all life great and happy lives and find a guy, girl, or just anyone who accepts you for you, who loves you, and accepts that you're broken and need fixing. I love all of you shippers, and I'll see you around...
          
          I love you, You love me, we're one happy family! With a great big hug and a book from me to you, let's all say we love you too! (Slogan I had for 2 years)
          
          ~FanFQueen XOXO