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I'm fucking sorry. I don't know how many but my best friend saw it and I told her. She was supportive and told I me all day "I love you Heaven" and hugged me a lot. I told my best guy friend after school and he was shocked, I hugged him afterwards. I think he's worried. But fuck, over a week clean just gone. I can't even see all of them cause my hand is all red. Lost count at 17. Pathetic. I had to tell them, "I'm trying to stop though"
At least they know..