mwah

Depression? Check
          Dead best friend? Check
          Falling in love with my ex again? Check
          The ex is her twin brother? Fucking check.
          LGBTQ+ rep? Check
          
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/284126580?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=FandomQueenA5&wp_originator=sfCUS%2FBDxHtXAoaXeI3AvIJoFuedNU1kz7hpNGHsy6yexa%2BhHfICYyE3C2oKHD3EzHpaDhyfEvbKJNEMnKY%2Fn7dCbkmKDaX1%2BrwrTSkQEsdPO3Z3CmkS%2BPWZ0UG6%2Bh75

MERRY CHRISTMAS BITCHES, JERKOFFS, AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN!!!!

AS IF THIS YEAR COULDN'T GET WORSE, MY DOG JUST DIED TODAY!!!!!! IM GETTING SO FUCKING TIRED OF THIS!!!! 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine :')....

....I AM SICK OF EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING.
          
          Less than 4 months ago, my grandma, 3 of my dogs, 2 cats, cousin all died.
          
          and NOW?....MY UNCLE DIED IN A REHAB CENTER 3 DAYS AGO!!!
          
          
          IM TIRED OF IT ALL!! IM TIRED OF LOSING EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE!!! IM TIRED OF FEELING LIKE SHIT EVERYDAY AND LONELY AND SUICIDAL!!! IM TIRED OF EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE EITHER LEAVING ME OR DYING!!! IM READY TO STOP LIVING AND IM ONLY 14 YEARS OLD!!!!
          
           THIS IS WHY I DON'T LET PEOPLE IN!!! THIS IS WHY I CLOSE MYSELF OFF!! BECAUSE IM SCARED THAT ILL LOSE THAT PERSON!!! IM TIRED IM TIRED IM TIRED!!! 
          
          But you know what? I'll just put a fake smile on my face, and say "I'm fine" to the few that actually ask. Because that's my life. Fake it till you make it....im just waiting to make it....

....when you point at a star that could be the same star a dead person has pointed at✋

Chapter Six Is Out!! 
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/284126580

Ok here is something i don't understand. Sexism. If someone says something that could be even remotely sexist towards girls, they automatically get hate. But, how is it you rarely see something say something sexist towards guys, and get hated for it? For example, if i told my future daughter(if i have one) "come help me in the kitchen while your brother finishes up his game" i would automatically get hated on. But if my son wanted to help in the kitchen and i said "no go play your game boys shouldn't really cook" I probably wouldn't get any hate. It's horrible. Sexism can go both ways, it can go any way. It's just like homophobia and heterophobia. If a straight person hates on gays, they'll get hated on and bullied probably, right? But if us LGBT people start hating on straight people, it's "funny" right? No. It's not. If they cant be sexist or rude to a certain gender/sexuality, neither can the opposites. It's called respect, and we all need some.

Kinda weird that some people on the internet think I'm pretty cool, but people in my real life think im nothing but a sarcastic bitch. Well- i blame Wattpad and Y/N for becoming a bitch

I had a dream once. What happened was I had lung cancer, and I had to make the choice to either suffer or leave everyone I loved behind. And I couldn't make the choice. Because I couldn't leave my family, you, my classmates, my friends, the people I care about. So I chose to suffer, because I didn't wanna go. I didn't want to lose everyone and everything i had. In the dream i suffered for a while, and then I died in the end. but it opened my eyes to what really matters in life. It isn't About how many people know who you are, or how rich or pretty or skinny you are. Its about the people you love and the people who love you. And even when you get mad or annoyed with the people you love, you have to remember, that you won't have them forever. You could be saying 'I'll see you in a bit' one minute and the next being upside down in a car, almost dead. People, we take too much for granted. We think everything will last forever, that it doesn't matter. But it does. Because nobody has forever, and so we have to spend what little time we have with the people we love. We have to take chances, live life. Because, no matter what we do, we don't know when it will end. Don't take that for granted. And having to choose between leaving others to suffer or leaving them behind, or suffering yourself, i would choose to suffer myself until the end, to have every second i can with the people i love.

❤❤I'm baaaaccckkkkk!!❤❤