Hello. It's been a while. It's 2022 now. I've been gone for a little bit. Sorry about that. Anyway, I've been very stressed and I just wanna stop talking in school. I know I have to communicate..But I don't want to anymore. Most times speaking will cause pain, mostly emotional pain. But that's not the only reason. As soon as my birthday comes, I'll supposedly come an adult and..I don't want to. I dont want to. I'll have to work then. I'll have to fend for myself. My brain is not mentally ready for anything. I mean, I went to sleep at 4 am yesterday night so..I..I just can't handle the stress. The possibility that I could fail this grade. I don't want to repeat school either. I'd be an embarrassment. I'd feel like such a failure. I don't want to..I also feel horrible about my past decisions about certain things. And all the death that happened last year still hunts me. I just need someone to talk to but someone specific. Someone nonjudgmental..But I don't wanna bother people with my problems anymore..And I know a lot of people aren't going to respond to this. I'd be surprised if one person did. And I mean respond like a normal person..As normal as it gets on the internet. But a lot of people have their own problems to deal with
I'm sorry for this dumb rant. That is all
Enjoy 2022, to whoever reads this
(If anyone actually dies read it)