Tbh today was really bad w/ grief. I feel as if all my childhood heroes was just never meant to work out. The grief today was bad, especially with technoblade. I also jsut rwatched some old dsmp ranboo lore today (Hoghunt) and realized that nothings gonna be the same anymore. Wilbur's life was ruined because of yk what, which is starting to prove more and more false as time goes on. Tommy doesn't deserve what's happened to him in the past while, Tubbo is getting better but I feel he had a rough patch, Phil lost 2/3 of his most favorite people, like ik it was a while ago but it today was a fever-dream. I miss 2020 when I could just sit down and watch the dsmp on some random ranboo/Technoblade stream and just let the stress leave. Idek anymore, I almost feel happy that Technoblade didn't get to see the world as it is rn, but I'd give anything man istg
