{Clay, Helmet... Your name does not belong on that list. But you need to be here if I'm going to tell my story. If I'm going to explain why I did what I did. Because you aren't like every others guys. You're good, and kind, and decent, and I didn't deserve to be with someone like you. I never would. I would have ruined you. It wasn't you. It was me. And everything that happened to me.}