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I very hate my family care about other people. They don't understand my feeling, always compared me with other people. I fucking hate that!!! I wish that i has been married with lovely husband. I had seen him a few time in dream, i want those dream been come true. Lay on bed with him, be hold in his strong arms. Crying on his shoulder when sad. I want talk a lot things with him.When he talk, i listen to him. I feel so lonely right now, i don't what to do anymore. Sometime, i wish that i had never born on this world. This thing getting me be weak, i very hate it.