Hayden’s Whore

HELP?! I NEED HELP?! I think I MAY be gender fluid? I DONT KNOW!!! Like… I love having my female body and showing off my boobs and curves and knowing I can carry my own babies in my body. I’m very content being female. But sometimes I look at certain videos of myself or catch myself in the mirror and feel like I’d be better looking as a dude? (Sometimes I feel super pretty as a girl and sometimes I feel like I’d be a hot dude) and I feel masculine? And not in a bad way, but in a “I feel like a teenage dude and wish I was a teenage dude” kind of way? Like in those moments I’m like “I wouldn’t mind being called he/him” and in other moments I’m like “IM A GIRL” I don’t know?! PLEASE HELP!!

I got all my Christmas presents early. And guess who got a Kindle fire?! ME!!!!

Imagine you have on a full face of makeup, a nice dress and nice cream cowgirl boots, and your hair finally dried and then your aunt (sitting on the couch on her phone wearing haydudes, a sweatshirt, and leggings) tells you to take the dogs out to use the bathroom WHEN ITS RAINING and the dogs are refusing to get into the grass so your aunt is yelling at you to GET IN THE RAIN to guide them into the grass but refusing to do so herself!! And when you call her out on her shit she tells you to watch your tone because you’re pissing her off!!

Also! My aunt literally called my outfit cute and my cousin is telling me to go change because I look disgusting and said that my aunt said that I have to change too!! MY AUNT LITERALLY CALLED MY OUTFIT CUTE!!!!

I took a shower last night and washed my hair and my family is saying my hair looks “dirty” and that I “look disgusting” and they’re making me shower again. Am I in the wrong?

Well… yesterday my uncle yelled at me that I’m not normal (he made a whole rant) and I looked at my aunt expecting her to stick up for me but instead she turned to me and said that it’s my fault because I opened the can of worms (all I said was that normal is subjective because everyone has a different sense of normal) and tonight my aunt called me entitled because I didn’t thank my uncle for dinner (I always thank them for getting me food, I just didn’t think about it tonight) when SHE took my dessert that I got for free after the restaurant got my food wrong. Claiming we’re all going to share ONE SLICE OF CAKE. (4 people). I called her out when she tried to decide what I’d get (because she wanted my free dessert) and my cousin spoke up and said it’s good manners to let those paying for my food have my free dessert. I was upset and when I’m upset I go silent and that pissed my aunt off (she gets mad because I talk too much and gets mad when I’m silent) so yeah… that was my night

No because did I see a hot guy on TikTok my age who posted how he only likes country girls so now I’m making another Snapchat and putting my bitmoji as a country girl? Yes. (He has his Snapchat in his bio AND he’s a Christian) wish me luck!

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