"Yeah, I love writing- it's a thing I do in my free time, but it seems like a responsibility too. It's like my...passion, does that make sense?"

No, Younger Self, that does not make sense. If it were a responsibility like a plant...you would have had to replace in years ago.
You love it? From what the looks of it, you've been avoiding it.
Jinkies. 
Your writing ability took a sharp dive.