Phoenix

*waves* 
          Hi Phoenix, it’s been a while!
          Hope your doing alright

HI BESTIE BOO

Ah yes. ADHD. *screams into void*

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Yeah, so I won't be on as often as I was in the past *scrambling to comprehend the notifcations that flooded my thing* This is because of SCHOOL.

Me, watching videos and gets stuck on videos about the Vegan Teacher:
          You Tuber: She said that coming out as Gay or Bisexual is selfish
          Me, internally: excuse me what the fuck you bitch ass cunt

Classmates: *crowd me and my partner's table during ela and are playing around when we have to write an essay*
          Me: *calm and working*
          
          In my head:
          
          ADHD: Hm... What are they doing?
          OCD: ... can they shut up so I work on this very important project that I can't stop working on?
          
          Outside my head:
          
          Me: *gets kicked in the leg a lot*
          
          Inside my head:
          ADHD: ooooo why is she trying to kick her?
          OCD: A, plz shut up. Focus on this assignment.
          High Anxiety: WE CAN'T FIND A GOOD SOURCE- WE'RE GONNA FAIL-
          
          Outside my head:
          
          Sub: We have 20 minutes left.
          
          Inside my head:
          
          ADHD: *focus on classmates*
          OCD: DUDE JUST WORK ON THIS PROJECT
          High Anxiety: OHNOOHNOOHNOOHNOOHNOOHNOOHNOOHNOOHNO
          
          Outside of my head:
          
          Friend: are you feeling stressed out?
          
          Inside my head:
          
          Depression: *wakes up* huh? Stress?
          
          Stress: *Stretching* time to wake up, bud.
          
          Outside of my head:
          
          Me: *tears up, panicking*
          
          Everyone: *doesn't notice*
          
          Me: yes
          
          Inside my head:
          
          Anxiety: NOOO WHY DIDN'T WE SAY YES GAH SO STUPID *slams head into wall a lot*
          OCD: Not another distraction
          ADHD: I wonder why he stole her headband-
          Anxiety and OCD: STOP IT
          
          Stress: we aren't going to finish in time
          Depression: *watching*
          
          Anxiety: OH NO NOT STRESS 
          
          Outside of my head:
          
          Friend: *tries to help but other friend interferes*
          
          Inside of head:
          
          Stress, Anxiety, Depression, Trauma: we needed that...
          Self judgment: GAH SO STUPID AND WEAK 
          
          Outside of head:
          
          Me: *forcing tears back*
          Sub: 5 minutes
          
          Inside head:
          
          Anxiety, Stress: NONONONONONONONOONJNONONOONONO
          
          OCD: MUST KEEP WORKING ON THIS VERY IMPORTANT PROJECT *hugs computer that has assignment close*
          
          ADHD: I'M JOHN LAURENCE AND THIS THE PLACE TO BE
          
          Outside of head:
          
          Class: *ends*
          
          Inside head:
          
          Anxiety, Stress, OCD: SJHFKDBHSJNFHIBDJSI *panicking*
          
          Outside of head: 
          
          Me: *packs up, still forcing back tears*

IT'S 12:53 IN THE MORNING AND I FEEL HYPER FOR NO GOT DAMN REASON AND HERE ARE SOME SONGS THAT I'M LISTENING TO SO HERE YOU GO!!!!!!!
          
          https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CmygQFhjaKM
          
          https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xa0Swz3X1cQ
          
          https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwwg8st_5W4
          
          https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=APBpioa5OZ4&t=11s
          
          https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EbVwesi6FTQ
          
          this is for fun: 
          
          https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IZkxBwoPTds

*sobs* Why couldn't humans have evolved with tails- I would settle for a monkey tail- *more sobbing*

Totally random but I found this and I can't stop laughing:
          
          https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l4FHFmh-bh8
          
          Kefa <3