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Be lated Happy birthday to our baby bear/tiger!!!! And HAPPY NEW YEAR! Can’t believe it’s the new year and his birthday is already gone. (P.s: i didn’t forget his bday i just forgot to post it here) It just feels like yesterday that i started writing FF of him here.
Well for you guys….. it might me different story hehe (awkward laugh) as in some of you might be waiting for the next dark ff I’ve promised to you guys…? (Question mark cause m not sure if anyone is waiting lol)
Anyways, if you are, then please don’t get your hopes too high….(avoids eye contact) cause to be really really realllyyyyyyy honest i haven’t thought shit about my next ff. Yes i did have all the plans and drafts but it all went away with my ex-phone, and after that you can say i’ve lost a lot of courage to write anything. And my personal working life is also there, m struggling to keep that and this life in balance and honestly when i reach home m too exhausted to even turn my phone on. Work is getting hard, life is getting harder, everything feels like shit and honestly it’s freaking boring and feels a little robotic to keep living like this.
So I won’t make any excuses cause it just feels wrong. No one has died, no one is sick (at least not physically), m all fine and good, just another zombie soul of this generation, who is numb and wants to do everything and nothing at the same time.
It’s just freaking tiring. Life i mean and honestly I don’t wanna start a story which m not sure i’ll be able to end and just ignore it half way through. That would be insult to the talent and also to you guys who reads whatever i write with stars in your eyes. I really feel guilty for making you guys wait but what can i say? M human too right?
AND M NOT SAYING I WONT WRITE OKAY!!? M just saying I don’t know when i’ll start writing it. Never say never right? Anyways it’s becoming a word vomit now so….bbye! Tc!