Dear cheesypie101.
I have read your book. "My pain" and I have to tell you.
My best friend and I, have the EXACT same problem.
My best friend, has it a little bit more than me though, but any ways.
I haven't got to the point of cutting myself......yet.
But I know what it feels like.
Because I see Him everyday, and each time, I die a little more inside.
I saw a quote, recently that all of us can relay to.
" dear pillow, I'm sorry for all the tears."
It's the most accurate quote I've seen. But I've seen your quotes, and I have decided that they're more accurate.
My best friend currently tried to cut herself, but I talked her out of it.
She has cried for I don't know how many days, because she lost him.
Not like "dead" lost him. It's Like a never see him again, never have any chances with him, lost.
I hope that makes since.
Buuutttt annnyyywwwaayyyss,
I hate seeing him period. I love seeing him but the thing is, who knew that this one person can cause so much pain?
He likes to smile at me and make jokes and look at me to see if I'm watching.
But hate it, because I know he's with someone else.
I want to tell him one day, that I hate that I love him.
Same with my best friend.
This post probably got off topic, but just know,
That
You're.not.alone.
:] but this probably doesn't help. Hopefully it does though.