hquinn1313

this message may be offensive 
. quit thinking I’m giving up my dream for you because I’m not even when we talked about it. I said I wasn’t going to quit thinking of yourself as a failure because you’re not you didn’t fail me. You didn’t hurt me. This is right here hurts me. You’re just ending us and then not even talking to me about it. I didn’t deserve that, but I’m not mad at you, Alex I love you with my whole fucking heart. I’m not gonna let you go. That’s not me. I’m gonna fight because you wouldn’t let me give up. I’m not gonna let you give up not on us. You’re my future you’re going to be in my future. One day but I need you to actually communicate with me. We need to talk about things cause I recognize I wasn’t the greatest and our relationship. I know that you remember that promised we made when this all started when you kept telling you were feeling about your mom for me Alex I’m not gonna keep how I feel from you anymore. I wrote my vows down a couple weeks ago. Alex, I wanna marry you and I I want to have a future together. I wanna have my dream with you in it. I want to go to Korea with you. I wanna get married when you come down here. I want you that is what makes me happy. You make me happy Alex you make me the happiest woman alive and I know I make you happy smile so much when you’re with me Alex, I’ve never seen you smile like you do with me so don’t throw this away. Be happy with me. I love you so fucking much. Don’t give up on us because I’m not no matter how much your sister makes me think that you didn’t love me. I know you do you still do take time Alex think about it I won’t blow up your phone or message you from here on out, but I’ll wait. I’ll wait for that text message or that call cause I’m not giving up I love you and only you, Alex and God. I hope you love me and only me because if that’s the case, Alex, we can get through anything. I just need you to believe in us as much as I believe in us.

hquinn1313

I’ll leave you alone. I don’t wanna blow up your phone just know that I don’t want anyone else. I love you and only you I’ll fight for us while you can’t Alex I love you. I’ve been in love with you for almost 5 years. The 11th would’ve been our six or seventh month. Don’t give up on the stress yet we can get through this we can do this. I believe in us come back to me when you’re ready because I only love you and nothing is ever gonna change that I just need you to talk to me or text me and we can have a real serious conversation about our future. I figured you wanted to stay in the military which is why I wanna come with you. I’m always gonna be scared of leaving Mom. It’s my mom. It’s my support system. I haven’t had anyone else in years, but I realize something you became my support system. You became the person I came to when things were wrong when I wasn’t OK Alex, you’re my home and I need you to come back to your home. You’re it for me you’re my everything I’ll wait as long as it takes for you to be ready for me. I can do childcare while you’re in the military. I just can’t do at home daycare, which isn’t what I wanted to do in the first place so give us this chance. We deserve that we both have been through a lot in our lives but being in love with you and loving everything about you you made all that worth it so I will give you time because i’m not a little girl I fight for the people I love and Alex you are the number one person I love and I wouldn’t have any other way. You’re hating on yourself and you feel like you’re a failure, but you’re not you have made me so proud to call you my future husband or my boyfriend you make me proud on a daily basis yes what you do is a pain in the ass sometimes military really sucks when it comes to relationships but Alex, we are both strong enough to get through this.