@FlawfullSoul14
are you seeing my comments ?? WP is glitching
@FlawfullSoul14 tbh it's a bunch of things spread out here N there lol like example I'll randomly want to read one day or do a simple craft the other or find random sites etc. but yeah mainly been tryna chill finishing shows N stuffs
@FlawfullSoul14 omg did I ever reply to this --, WP must've not given me the notification or my comment disappeared I def understand that N I'm glad it's alr for the most part I hope you do get to the point of being incredible though ofc those moments'll still happen but it'll yk b more I hope you're still alright :thumbsup:
ayayya glad I came across your acc again
wanted to check up on you again lmao
@FlawfullSoul14 ahh that's nice that's nice also icl is a slang right 'I can't lie' ? had to look that up LMAO right I getchu that's gud
@Sweetghouls I'm still on icl wattpad is always gonna be my home. Yeah alr is more of a I'm not doing horribly but I'm not doing incredible. In all honestly I'm just at a space where I'm okay for the most part I think.
@FlawfullSoul14 ayyy !!!! really glad to hear from you it fr has been lmao didn't think you'd really be on glad you are ofc + same here same here saying alr is weird cause some people take it as good but some people take it as bad when it's in between LMAO but it's also weird cause if you just had a breakdown but are alr you'll say you're alr ?? but it's also also weird because it can mean you're happy but don't want to explain it as that or bad but also don't omg L.O.T.D: alr is a weird word
hey peeps
I just wanna say please check up on the people around you. I tried to kill myself two months ago. Thankfully I didn't end up in hospital. My parents don't know. But had something happened it would've been a massive shock. I went on a picnic with my best friend that day. No one suspected a thing when I was throwing up the day after cause I was on my period. I wish someone had noticed. I wish someone had asked. And it breaks my heart to know where my head was in that moment. I just want you guys to know that I'd rather here your problems than find out that you're gone. I've been in that position and the thought of others being there really scares me. Please reach out for help if you need it.
lots of love, me
@Sweetghouls yeah for sure I think pushing people towards the right help is such a big thing. and getting rid of the stigma around therapy and getting help. it's there for people to use.
@FlawfullSoul14 that's good and yeah that's very true but sometimes, we can't always be there for them, I know people who constantly spill problems to a point that's practically all they talk about I get them, but, sometimes, it's too much for you and their negative thoughts start to become yours and that's when you have to learn to let go and accept that you can't always check up on them and they for you definitely should always check up once in a while for your friends and family rn I'm talking about the people who you have to constantly check up on
@Sweetghouls Yeah sadly I did. Yeah im okay, I'm doing better now. And yeah getting to 18 was a massive milestone for me. Yeah I just wish we all paid a little more attention. We can't save others but we can support and try to help them.
'i used to think the most selfless thing was helping others when i was hurting
but then i realised pushing others away when i was destroying everything inside of me would be the most painfully selfless action i'd have to do'
'i refuse to hurt others
in the midst of my own self destruction'
didn't relate to Olivia Rodrigo's jealousy jealousy, until I checked the girls I used to go school with and realised I'm not shit. they look like fucking models and one of them actually is model like wtf. they glew up and I'm still a damn potato
i don't think I've felt this disconnected ever. i feel like I've lost all of my friends. I've lost all affection to everyone. and feel like complete shit. staying alive is one of the most painful things to do rn.
@Sweetghouls but this is such a heavy burden and i can't do that to them, i feel like they don't even know who i am anymore
@FlawfullSoul14 remember that it's okay to let a little few things out sometimes it can definitely get too much N some things you shouldn't tell cause it'd be too much pressure on them but yeah, I'm sure you got it
maybe you weren't the one for me but deep down I wanted you to be
~ Coaster, Khalid
ayoo! it has kinda been a while
have you been up to anything?
@Sweetghouls ahhh that makes sense. yeah it can get boring but it's worth it in the end cause you can help people in a better manner cause you'll be more educated. also same door handles will always be a major ick of mine
@FlawfullSoul14 I acc have online courses, not online school, so I still have to do work N stuff even in summer otherwise it's a waste of money cause they'll just keep taking money out lool thanks, but, idm school, I like doing a lot of my work, it can me feel not so useless, and sometimes, like science, it helps my mental health to really really understand just a lot of things It can def get exhausting at times though obviously, I don't want to do school-work my whole life lol I wanna be able to go out N help others rather than helping myself by learning (though learning comes in handy when tryna help people depending on what your learning) I like that, "take it week by week" that's true and yess, I hope I'll be safe, but, covid or not, my ass worries about germs well, it is online school, but what I mean by that is not like online classes N stuff N not a specific given time to do stuff N all