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Don't you just love it when the smallest noise makes you fucking jump cause your nerves are fucked from all the fighting you grew up around so its at the point where you force yourself to be happy so you don't have to make people worry and when they do worry you just tell them that your fine when really your not and most nights when you do sleep its because you cried yourself to sleep instead of actually being able to relax enough to sleep or just stay up all night and say you slept only to end up passing out the next day for like 3 hours because your tired and need sleep but can't unless you take meds to help but you don't want to take the meds because you have people you enjoy talking to and they tend to stay up far later then what the meds let you so you force yourself to suffer so you can be there for the people who need you?, no just me?
God why is therapy so fucking expensive