Crys H

and I told you once I hate the fact that I gave you this kind of power over me, so I'll tell you now that I hate the fact you still have that much power over the tiniest of things relating to the way I experiment love 

and is so fuckin stupid because it's been years now, I should be over it, and he says he loves me and I actually trust him but even that makes me cry because what if in two months he sends me a text saying he wants to broke up with me and then ignores my texts for a few hours 

to the point that even still you haunt me in my relationships

and the thing is, i crave his touch. so a hug is all i could ask for

wondering if he used to kiss that spot in another life 

he comes to my mind even while doing my homework, when I'm eating, when I'm watching a series, I think of him when I'm getting ready for school and wonder if he would find me pretty