Flowy

Hey! Long time uh? I returned to wattpad- 'cause I lost my account lol. So...How have you been? <]
          I'm sorry if I suddenly disappeared ;;    ;

After 2 years i will start reading

Hello, for those who had been from time to time reading Our Souls Aren't Pure, i Quit. I dont enjoy the book anymore. I think its because its too long, its too much. I had put my soul and heart into it for almost a year now, and now i just feel empty. I know how it should end, how it ended in my head and yeah, it should only get its finishing touches now, but i just dont feel like i can force myself to finish the book. To give it the finale you all have been waiting for. It hurts me to say it, but i cant.
          
          If theres somebody to care about the book, then i can tell you how it will end myself.
          
          But honestly i hate it, it was my first project so its not the best, i was not able to keep the things i wanted to keep and going after the important stuff, it just didn't work for me.
          
          It's not like Anibody would care anyway, i feel like there were barely people who enjoyed it, and maybe its just my sadness and disappointment talking for me. 
          
          I will take a break that can take up to a year even, so you all will probably forget about me anyway.
          
          I got books that are better and more fun, and bring me joy not frustration.
          
          When i finish Please Kill Me, i might think of returning but I'll see.
          
          I need to overall fix my Au and stuff, so yeah...
          
          Love ya guys a lot, I'm just sad because it's a piece of me i learned to hate and it hurts me.
          
          Hope to re-do it one day.
          
          If you somehow enjoy my work, Let Me Make You a dress is a lot better in my opinion, thank you for understanding.
          
          Love ya

Hello, even though another few bad things happened recently, such as one of my friends being in a bad state and i managed to have another break down, I'm better now.
          
          With that i need to say a few things to be clean, I'm getting a break from 'Our Souls Aren't Pure'. Since i want to work more on my other projects, such as 'Let me make you a dress' and i also started to slowly work on a comic as fan work for 'Siren' from WerewolfSoup. But most importantly I'm very soon back at writing Please Kill Me since i got a new wave of inspiration.
          
          Few past months haven't been easy, but i feel like it's getting better. Thanks to all of you who have been keeping me alive.
          
          I recived words of reassurance, words of care and also lovely comments on my work, thanks to all of you who comment or vote on my books, or just read them, i dont feel the urge to stop. And even though its been hard, i feel like i am back on track and will be able to carry on my projects.
          
          I know i say it a lot, but there's a big thank you to everybody reading this.
          
          I can promise only one thing. I will make sure my stories are good enough so that all of you will enjoy reading them even more!❤️
          
          -
          With tons of love, Flowy.

I sometimes feel so...
          
          Worthless.
          
          I feel like I'm everyone's second choice.
          
          Like the people that enjoyed spending time with me, they don't want to animore.
          
          I don't know why.
          
          Did i do something wrong?
          
          Was I not enough?
          
          I'm I never enough?
          
          What can I do?
          
          Please. What should i do?
          
          What should i do so people want to spend time with me again?
          
          Is it selfish? To be jealous when one of the people you tried to give everything is rather spending time somewhere else?
          
          Please. How can i be fun again?
          
          I ran out of ideas.
          
          ...
          
          The problem is, I'm not sure who i am anymore. I don't know what to do, it feels dumb and selfish just saying my thoughts out here on the internet. But... Is it?
          
          Is it selfish to ask you for opinions? 
          
          I don't know.
          
          I don't know if the things i have been doing, drawing, writing and storytelling, was it because i enjoy it? Or because I want to be liked? I want to be enjoyable for people? It's killing me.
          
          I'll probably take a break from all writing for now. I can't write. 
          
          Love you all, im sorry that right on the new year, my first post is so sad.
          
          But i have been asking myself this for so long i need answers.
          
          Love you guys.
          
          -Flowy
          
          

Hiii- Happy new year- I hope this year you've very good health and are very well, I give ya good thoughts. Please, take care and have lovely day <3

For those not reading Please Kill me or haven't Read the note, I'm taking a break on PKM, since it's mentally draining me and stuff, if you want to know more go read the note.but what i want to say is that i will spend more time on Our Souls Aren't Pure. And damn this is going to be a ride.

People reading this better be reading our new fanfiction "All the lives I've saved"!!! And the amazing stories of my favourite person Flowyyy <3

Hello loves! For those reading 'Please Kill me' 
          I finally managed to make it a cover, tell me if you like it and what do you think about the story in general.
          

Hiii Flowy, I was wondering if you could give me your discord again so I can add you there (on my phone) to be able to text you more often!!
          Kiss kiss