Flowyisdead4554

Hello, for those who had been from time to time reading Our Souls Aren't Pure, i Quit. I dont enjoy the book anymore. I think its because its too long, its too much. I had put my soul and heart into it for almost a year now, and now i just feel empty. I know how it should end, how it ended in my head and yeah, it should only get its finishing touches now, but i just dont feel like i can force myself to finish the book. To give it the finale you all have been waiting for. It hurts me to say it, but i cant.
          	
          	If theres somebody to care about the book, then i can tell you how it will end myself.
          	
          	But honestly i hate it, it was my first project so its not the best, i was not able to keep the things i wanted to keep and going after the important stuff, it just didn't work for me.
          	
          	It's not like Anibody would care anyway, i feel like there were barely people who enjoyed it, and maybe its just my sadness and disappointment talking for me. 
          	
          	I will take a break that can take up to a year even, so you all will probably forget about me anyway.
          	
          	I got books that are better and more fun, and bring me joy not frustration.
          	
          	When i finish Please Kill Me, i might think of returning but I'll see.
          	
          	I need to overall fix my Au and stuff, so yeah...
          	
          	Love ya guys a lot, I'm just sad because it's a piece of me i learned to hate and it hurts me.
          	
          	Hope to re-do it one day.
          	
          	If you somehow enjoy my work, Let Me Make You a dress is a lot better in my opinion, thank you for understanding.
          	
          	Love ya

Flowyisdead4554

@ lazy_linda7 aww thank you, ill try. Love ya
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lazy_linda7

@Flowyisdead4554 Awww, I'm a bit late in seeing this but take a break as much as you need! No pressure. Your books are lovely, don't let the negative thoughts effects you. What's more important is that you try and progress through it. Don't forget to always take care of yourself, stay hydrated, eat and sleep well ❤
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Flowyisdead4554

@ Petalssans  aww thank you, im just very angry at myself for not being able to finish the book. It's just one simple thing and i could not do it. It irritates me, you know? But thank you honey, I'm excited to read your work soon, and just being here is enough. Its not like anybody could do anything anyway.
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Flowyisdead4554

Hello, for those who had been from time to time reading Our Souls Aren't Pure, i Quit. I dont enjoy the book anymore. I think its because its too long, its too much. I had put my soul and heart into it for almost a year now, and now i just feel empty. I know how it should end, how it ended in my head and yeah, it should only get its finishing touches now, but i just dont feel like i can force myself to finish the book. To give it the finale you all have been waiting for. It hurts me to say it, but i cant.
          
          If theres somebody to care about the book, then i can tell you how it will end myself.
          
          But honestly i hate it, it was my first project so its not the best, i was not able to keep the things i wanted to keep and going after the important stuff, it just didn't work for me.
          
          It's not like Anibody would care anyway, i feel like there were barely people who enjoyed it, and maybe its just my sadness and disappointment talking for me. 
          
          I will take a break that can take up to a year even, so you all will probably forget about me anyway.
          
          I got books that are better and more fun, and bring me joy not frustration.
          
          When i finish Please Kill Me, i might think of returning but I'll see.
          
          I need to overall fix my Au and stuff, so yeah...
          
          Love ya guys a lot, I'm just sad because it's a piece of me i learned to hate and it hurts me.
          
          Hope to re-do it one day.
          
          If you somehow enjoy my work, Let Me Make You a dress is a lot better in my opinion, thank you for understanding.
          
          Love ya

Flowyisdead4554

@ lazy_linda7 aww thank you, ill try. Love ya
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lazy_linda7

@Flowyisdead4554 Awww, I'm a bit late in seeing this but take a break as much as you need! No pressure. Your books are lovely, don't let the negative thoughts effects you. What's more important is that you try and progress through it. Don't forget to always take care of yourself, stay hydrated, eat and sleep well ❤
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Flowyisdead4554

@ Petalssans  aww thank you, im just very angry at myself for not being able to finish the book. It's just one simple thing and i could not do it. It irritates me, you know? But thank you honey, I'm excited to read your work soon, and just being here is enough. Its not like anybody could do anything anyway.
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Flowyisdead4554

Hello, even though another few bad things happened recently, such as one of my friends being in a bad state and i managed to have another break down, I'm better now.
          
          With that i need to say a few things to be clean, I'm getting a break from 'Our Souls Aren't Pure'. Since i want to work more on my other projects, such as 'Let me make you a dress' and i also started to slowly work on a comic as fan work for 'Siren' from WerewolfSoup. But most importantly I'm very soon back at writing Please Kill Me since i got a new wave of inspiration.
          
          Few past months haven't been easy, but i feel like it's getting better. Thanks to all of you who have been keeping me alive.
          
          I recived words of reassurance, words of care and also lovely comments on my work, thanks to all of you who comment or vote on my books, or just read them, i dont feel the urge to stop. And even though its been hard, i feel like i am back on track and will be able to carry on my projects.
          
          I know i say it a lot, but there's a big thank you to everybody reading this.
          
          I can promise only one thing. I will make sure my stories are good enough so that all of you will enjoy reading them even more!❤️
          
          -
          With tons of love, Flowy.

Flowyisdead4554

@ Naty0119144  @ Flowyisdead4554  dont forget about your birthday gift!
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Naty0119144

@ Flowyisdead4554  <3<333
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Flowyisdead4554

@ Naty0119144  @ Flowyisdead4554  thank you dear❤️ love ya
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Flowyisdead4554

I sometimes feel so...
          
          Worthless.
          
          I feel like I'm everyone's second choice.
          
          Like the people that enjoyed spending time with me, they don't want to animore.
          
          I don't know why.
          
          Did i do something wrong?
          
          Was I not enough?
          
          I'm I never enough?
          
          What can I do?
          
          Please. What should i do?
          
          What should i do so people want to spend time with me again?
          
          Is it selfish? To be jealous when one of the people you tried to give everything is rather spending time somewhere else?
          
          Please. How can i be fun again?
          
          I ran out of ideas.
          
          ...
          
          The problem is, I'm not sure who i am anymore. I don't know what to do, it feels dumb and selfish just saying my thoughts out here on the internet. But... Is it?
          
          Is it selfish to ask you for opinions? 
          
          I don't know.
          
          I don't know if the things i have been doing, drawing, writing and storytelling, was it because i enjoy it? Or because I want to be liked? I want to be enjoyable for people? It's killing me.
          
          I'll probably take a break from all writing for now. I can't write. 
          
          Love you all, im sorry that right on the new year, my first post is so sad.
          
          But i have been asking myself this for so long i need answers.
          
          Love you guys.
          
          -Flowy
          
          

Flowyisdead4554

@ Flowyisdead4554  thank you so much. It means so much to me. Love ya
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Naty0119144

@ Flowyisdead4554  Hey beauty, I don't know you enough, but you are a great person, sometimes there is some people with which you dont connect enough, but don't let that stop you from being you. It's not selfish want some attention, everyone deserve be heard, maybe you haven't met the right people, you deserve be heard, we are here for you, you're not alone <3
            
            It's okay if you want to take a rest, you deserve it, love ya, please, take care <333
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Naty0119144

Hiii- Happy new year- I hope this year you've very good health and are very well, I give ya good thoughts. Please, take care and have lovely day <3

Flowyisdead4554

@ Naty0119144  oh my lovvveeeee lots of love to you too, i promise to take care of myself! And be good too oki? Lot of self love. Agreed? And i hope everything is better this year. Good luck and lot of health 
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Flowyisdead4554

For those not reading Please Kill me or haven't Read the note, I'm taking a break on PKM, since it's mentally draining me and stuff, if you want to know more go read the note.but what i want to say is that i will spend more time on Our Souls Aren't Pure. And damn this is going to be a ride.

foxyrokxy

Hiii Flowy, I was wondering if you could give me your discord again so I can add you there (on my phone) to be able to text you more often!!
          Kiss kiss

Flowyisdead4554

But nothing else I guess
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Flowyisdead4554

@ foxyrokxy  just big F
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foxyrokxy

@ Flowyisdead4554  it's flowyisdead4554 right? Or there's like a little space bar in between 
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Naty0119144

Hii!1!1! How're ya?×?$? I feel a little better now and I was able to get a lot of free time. Soo...,,, I'm ready to read ALL- ur New chApters owowow
          Sorry if I worried you, I hope you're a little calmer now, ty very much for your patience <3
          

Flowyisdead4554

@ Naty0119144  can you try sending froend reaquest? I will send you the group link there
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Naty0119144

@ Flowyisdead4554  Howdyy@1!!1!! It's okay- don't worry about that :3
            But...it doesn't let me enter the link ;;;   ;;
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Flowyisdead4554

If not I have the same name as on wattpad so send me friend request oki?
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Flowyisdead4554

Hey... I'm sorry to say this but my motivation is dying out...  I have the feeling that with each chapter less people read that and that you all are losing interest.... If you actually enjoy my book please let me know... I will take a small break for now until i fetch some motivation and if I don't this will stay here... If i do i will delete this and continue the story.
          
          I'm sorry but i truly need to see that somebody likes it or i will feel useless... It's selfish of me asking like this but I'm just feeling like I'm not improving in writing and when i read something i wrote I'm sometimes even emberassed... 
          
          So yeah... I love you and let me know if you wanna read more of this or if you don't i guess...
          
          (I copied this from my book so yeah...)

Flowyisdead4554

@ Flowyisdead4554  thank you so much! Sending kisses back and it really gives me confidence knowing that somebody like you reads and enjoy what i create! 
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foxyrokxy

@Flowyisdead4554 I'm glad to know that then! It means a lot to me too, you really are a nice person and a great writer. The offer is still up if you ever need help with anything, whether it's about writing or not! You should maybe download Grammarly, it corrects every mistake you make and I have to use it as well for my stories or I might leave hundreds of mistakes in my published stories :') 
            Big kissies love, take care of yourself and don't doubt your stories!!
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Flowyisdead4554

@ foxyrokxy  you really give me a lot of confidence in just reading it... You mean lot to me and i hope you realize it. Thank you a lot for all of your support, i have a friend that we talk about the story, so shes helping me. I really appreciate your offer but i think you have enought of work and i dont want to give you more of it. But it really helps me just to know that you appreciate it and thank you for that! Be well and im sending you a big kiss dear❤️
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