@Fluffy_Triceratops
chapter three of "absinthe" has finally been published for anyone who wants to read it! <3
https://www.wattpad.com/1445238696-%EF%BD%83%EF%BD%88%EF%BD%81%EF%BD%90%EF%BD%94%EF%BD%85%EF%BD%92-%EF%BD%94%EF%BD%88%EF%BD%92%EF%BD%85%EF%BD%85
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! And if you don’t celebrate, I hope you have a good day anyway!!
If you wanna share what you got for Christmas, feel free!
xox
— LF/Fluffie. ❤️
tmnt 2k3 leo dating headcannons have be published to my tmnt imagines book! <3
https://www.wattpad.com/1493230553-%F0%9D%90%83%F0%9D%90%9A%F0%9D%90%AD%F0%9D%90%A2%F0%9D%90%A7%F0%9D%90%A0-%F0%9D%90%87%F0%9D%90%9E%F0%9D%90%9A%F0%9D%90%9D%F0%9D%90%9C%F0%9D%90%9A%F0%9D%90%A7%F0%9D%90%A7%F0%9D%90%A8%F0%9D%90%A7%F0%9D%90%AC-%F0%9D%90%8B%F0%9D%90%9E%F0%9D%90%A8%F0%9D%90%A7%F0%9D%90%9A%F0%9D%90%AB%F0%9D%90%9D%F0%9D%90%A8-%F0%9D%9F%90%F0%9D%9F%8E%F0%9D%9F%8E%F0%9D%9F%91
wattpad is actually about to make me crash out. please take the time to check out this post as it won't let me share it on here. thank you.
https://www.tumblr.com/fluffytriceratops/800876437338013696/link-to-her-gofundme-click-me?source=share
[more info in comments if i can]
it literally deleted my comment- i'm bout to cry.
my aunt is suffering from her third round of breast cancer. it's stage four. the post i put on tumblr will explain everything. please take a moment to read it. thank you.
A shitty life update:
I just want to start off by saying I’m so sorry for being MIA these past however many months. Life, as you can see above, has been real shitty as of late. My last update on here was about my cat with cancer. We unfortunately had to put him down, and it was the worst day of my life. My cat was everything to me. He was my baby. I always knew his death would be really hard on me, but it happened way too soon and I think that made it worse honestly. Not long after my brothers cat died of liver failure. So things just kept getting worse and worse. The vet assured us it was nothing we had done, and sometimes this stuff just happens. They were all very nice both times and clearly felt really bad for us. And if you think that’s the worst of it, it’s not. Because my aunts cancer came back for the third time and it’s really bad. Her doctors didn’t give her much longer to live but she’s not giving up, she’s now in the US for special treatments that cost $15,000 USD due upfront each week. Money which she doesn’t have. There is a gofundme for her, and I’ve been debating sharing it on here. My main concern is people will find out who I am, as I am anonymous on here and my irl life is private. The world is a scary place and people can be weird, so I’ve been hesitant. But there’s a good chance I will at some point. I’m also debating opening up some form of commissions and all the money would go to my aunt. But my PayPal isn’t working so I’d have to use my dads and again that makes me nervous. Idk. Yeah, so life is shit rn. I’m sorry for not being active. I hope once things start getting better that it will change. I’m sorry for being backed up on requests/replies/dms (etc) I’m working on them slowly but surely. Thank you for your patience and kindness. Please keep my aunts health in your prayers if you pray. And if you don’t, good thoughts and well wishes are always welcome. <3
Thank you guys for everything.
— fluffy/fluffie.
@Fluffy_Triceratops Maybe it could magically heal by its on, maybe. But the most important thing, death had given u a chance to say good bye for once, let her keep medication. Hope is relevant, and could be rewarded or wasted or doomed. Its a 50/50 situation, the most important thing is to keep ur aunt distracted from her own sorrow, and entertained away from it too. Let her live her life however she wants, let her go hiking, ride dragons, heck, even let her steal ur snacks. U'll never realise how important is a moment until it becomes a memory, so thats the goal! Go for it, create new bittersweet memories with her. Ik my solution may seem like her doctor(Bc it is) but lets all be honest, there is hope and then there is naivity. But the choice is still hers, let her live her life or stay surrounded by sickness in her last moments. And this is the meaning of literal free-will. Who knows, maybe in her last few days maybe she could elminate the world's hunger or even do a good rebellion group against the entities disguised as humans that live among us.
@Fluffy_Triceratops Perhaps our experience is different, and our mindset differ. But we share one thing, loss. And when it comes to loss it leads to complex emotions js like longing, frustration, anger, sadness, etc. But finally, acceptance is the final stage after hope is dimmed by the circumstances of the Sacred reality we residen at. Im not pessimistic, but i prefer to keep it realistic, precise, professional...bc its the only choice that wont crush me. Even though i live in my own head, i can as pretty much tell when to give up and when to not for others nd not for me bc i'll def give up from the start if i was in ur position. Bc lets be honest, stage 4 cancer is the red line of an up coming inevitable ending that neither of u wants—but who am i to decide—death is urgent, unpredictable, nd def not picky. It could come all ways, and most of em is unpredictable. Js like my aunt's death, it was fast nd out of no where. At least urs is lucky, at least yk that IS an ending, some where. But soon.
@Fluffy_Triceratops Life is so fragile, and we eventually will have to let go one day. Its not that u didnt try to save ur cat, or even stop your Auntie's cancer from progressing and slowly killing her. But bc this is the cycle of life nd death, whether we like it or not. We'll watch the people we love and care about leave us eventually and veca versa. I acknowledge ur situation and ur feelings matters and is valid, but my point is i lack empathy and i hope whatever i sprew wont make u think that i might be cruel or smth, im js not the "im sorry for ur loss xx" type, i like to share experience and offer solutions and advice. I lost someone very, very important to me and a childhood pet from a few years ago, but recalling it now. I still remember my aunt that i lost, i didn't cry when they told me the news, i didnt panic or anything. I js felt, detached. Numbness, like always. I kept going on my life while my sister nd Mom calling me "heartless" for not showing grief or any kind of emotions, bc i cant. I js shut down completely and forbid myself from ever eating the same food she would make whenever she visited us, bc none of them tasted like hers. And never will. I experience emotions differently and show my emotions differently, and that does not makes me any less of a person js bc i cant offer or feel empathy, even now. I cant bring myself to care for her sons' feelings or other people's grief for her. I js...dont, yk?
I’m asking for prayers for my cat, Biggie. We took him to the vet today and have discovered that he has cancer. Multiple tumours. It’s progressed so fast in such a short amont of time that our vet says there’s nothing they can do for him. They’ve given him some medicine to help him eat, but she says he only has two more weeks. He’s only eight. And to some he may just be a cat but to me he’s my baby. I’m absolutely devastated and heartbroken. He’s not in any pain so far, which is good. I’m hoping with the meds we have that maybe, just maybe, it’ll shrink the tumours. I really don’t want to lose him. So if you pray, please pray for a miracle/healing and that the meds we ordered come quickly. And if you don’t pray, good thoughts and we’ll wishes are always welcome. Tysm. <3
I’m asking for prayers for a family member. I can’t give too many details or say their name. But we’ve just found out they have cancer for the third time. They just had a major surgery for their second round of cancer last year. (I don’t even think it’s been a full year yet) So if anyone could pray for them that would mean the absolute world to me. And if you don’t pray, good thoughts and well wishes are always welcome. Thank you guys so much. <3
@Fluffy_Triceratops oh no! I'm so sorry to hear that! I'm sending prayers for you family member
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH jsiodfgifh- i've succombed to madness-
I WANT ABBY AND BABY RAAAAHHH
https://www.wattpad.com/story/398330162-%F0%9D%90%9F%F0%9D%90%A8%F0%9D%90%AB%F0%9D%90%9B%F0%9D%90%A2%F0%9D%90%9D%F0%9D%90%9D%F0%9D%90%9E%F0%9D%90%A7-%F0%9D%90%9F%F0%9D%90%AB%F0%9D%90%AE%F0%9D%90%A2%F0%9D%90%AD-%F0%9D%90%A4%F0%9D%90%9D%F0%9D%90%A1-%F0%9D%90%A2%F0%9D%90%A6%F0%9D%90%9A%F0%9D%90%A0%F0%9D%90%A2%F0%9D%90%A7%F0%9D%90%9E%F0%9D%90%AC
i published a jj maybank imagine to my obx imagines book if anyone is interested in checking it out! it would mean a lot!! <3
https://www.wattpad.com/1429610730-bad-dreams-jj-maybank
i finally published my bnha/mha imagines on my other wattpad acc. requests are currently open. feel free to check it out if you want to! <3
https://www.wattpad.com/story/265878940-%F0%9D%90%9D%F0%9D%90%9A%F0%9D%90%B2%F0%9D%90%9D%F0%9D%90%AB%F0%9D%90%9E%F0%9D%90%9A%F0%9D%90%A6%F0%9D%90%9E%F0%9D%90%AB-%F0%9D%90%A6%F0%9D%90%B2-%F0%9D%90%A1%F0%9D%90%9E%F0%9D%90%AB%F0%9D%90%A8-%F0%9D%90%9A%F0%9D%90%9C%F0%9D%90%9A%F0%9D%90%9D%F0%9D%90%9E%F0%9D%90%A6%F0%9D%90%A2%F0%9D%90%9A-%F0%9D%90%A2%F0%9D%90%A6%F0%9D%90%9A%F0%9D%90%A0%F0%9D%90%A2%F0%9D%90%A7%F0%9D%90%9E%F0%9D%90%AC