ForgottenToBeBroken

The only thing holding me back from hurting myself is I think I don't have a good enough reason...
          
          
          
          Is it bad I want a reason?

"Well, finding new ways to hurt each other is what we're good at." Gideon from Criminal Minds

It's been a year since I have self diagnosed myself.. A year today...
          
          
          
          Happy birthday me.
          The thing is.. It doesn't feel like my birthday just another day. One of the bad days I wish I wasn't here.

New book for my story.
          My other one explained to much and didn't get to the point..
          All truth in this story.

I just had a dream my 'friend' turned everyone against me.
          This girl pulled her away and I head "how's it in your friend groip? Who's the wrose? We can change your classes and subjects if you like"
          "My mom and sister" 
          It felt so real. She had them all tied around her finger.. I wish I could have told them how I felt..
          About mybdepression.
          But I forced myself to ease up the next minute, and I left the room. Not wanting to sleep again.

I see why the friends I have/had stopped talking to me now. I get it.

I just decided to go to bed. Don't mind me. I'm just dead.

Never have I ever felt so dead inside, I held a knife to my skin..
          But I guess everybody changes.
          

I'm only in here when I'm of my worst of my depression.
          Sorry if I don't get back to most of you guys tell awhile...
          <\3

Check out @emf192 An amazing person, with an amazing story!
          They get me, which others don't.. I haven't seen that in awhile..