Fɾαɳƈιʂ★★!

WARNING: VENT POST
          
          
          
          
          Welp, happy new year everyone. Merry Christmas, happy Hanukkah, happy holidays bc I frankly don't know any besides Christmas and Hanukkah.
          
          I hope you all are having a great 2026, because I can't say the same.
          
          I've been in a bit of a slump the past month, being stressed with school, then out of school and constantly stuck at home. My home life is really bad for those that I don't talk to a lot, so school is like my safe place.
          
          Either way, I haven't been in the best mental state. I haven't been in months and I just can't seem to fix it. I haven't had the urge to write, or do anything I used to love. Fuck, I don't think I've read fanfiction in a year.
          
          I thought that this year I could do better. I could force myself to write and be happy- I'm even dyeing my hair this weekend.
          
          But everytime I try to fix my mental health, something happens. Last night my dad got arrested for drunk driving and speeding. My brother, who hasn't driven in months and has a busted arm, had to drive to pick him and my mom up, because even though my dad got "arrested" and his license taken away and could have killed my mom- because he damn near got into an accident- they didn't even hold him over night.
          
          And because he got his license taken away, he's been even more of an asshole to me and my brother. He broke the fucking silverware drawer- wtf did the silverware do to you!?
          
          I could go into more detail, but I honestly don't want to. I just wanted to say I'm sorry to all my wattpad friends. I'm still here, I never left, but I've been so inactive I might as well have.
          
          I don't want to be like this. I want to write and read and do the things that make me happy, but shit just keeps getting in the way.
          
          I'm sorry for ranting, guys. I just needed to let you all know what's happening, get shit off my chest. I can't promise I'm coming back, but I can promise that I miss you all, I miss being here, I just don't know how to fix it.

Do you ever feel so much intense rage that-
          
          You will not fight god...
          
          Oh no...
          
          You will KILL God.
          
          There are no questions. 
          
          You are FUCKING WINNING.
          
          
          
          
          ...No? Just me?

How have I played 7 hours on the Sonic Racing Crossworlds DEMO!!!
          
          THE DEMO PEOPLE!!!
          
          I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO GET THE GAME SO I'VE BEEN PLAYING THE DEMO- 7 HOURS!!
          
          ON 3 LEVELS!!!
          
          AND I'M NOT BORED YET!!!

I am on fall break.
          
          My grades for the block have been finalized.
          
          WHY AM I HAVING NIGHTMARES ABOUT WAKING UP AND SUDDENLY I HAVE A D?!

Hey guys, sorry I've been dead for like...
          
          2 months now? I don't even know.
          
          I've been really busy with school, and I just started my fall break (which, for those who don't have a fall break, it's basically a week-long break between your first and second quarter or block, depending on what your school does)
          
          Just to share a bit of what I've done- I got an award for representing one of my school's core values, I finished my finals, I was the first one to finish in both ELA and Algebra, and I got the highest grade out of my class for the Algebra final. 
          
          I did have a lot of issues in science, a couple of panic attacks, but it's okay now.
          
          My final grades for this block are
          ELA - 101.4%
          Physical Science - 99.2%
          Algebra 1.1 - 100.3%
          
          Mildly disappointed with my science grade, but I did my best. :,3
          
          Anyways, enough about my time MIA- in the week I have off from school, I'm going to be doing a lot of writing, this means probably a new book here, updates on @Unitiverse , and updates on my AO3 account for the singular person who reads my stuff there. :3
          
          I'm happy to be back, and I'll try not to die again!

*got a B+ on Midterm review*
          
          I'm gonna faaaailll~

*looks at girlfriend who starts school on Wednesday*
          
          *me, who has midterms on Thursday*
          
          ✨️America ✨️

*googles "how to subconsciously convince people to make fanfics of your and your gf's fics?"*
          
          ...*googles "how to force people to write fanfics of your fics?"*

I have been in school for three weeks now...
          
          I have 1 friend...
          
          AND IT'S THE MATH TEACHER!!
          
          SHE'S THE ONLY ONE THAT TALKS TO ME AFTER CLASS!!!
          
          EJISBSJSJDBSHSJS

Me: *just sitting in the first class of the day, chilling*
          
          Me: *hears a girl say my name and say that I'm ugly*...
          
          WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO, DUDE?!?