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Today I'll be posting a five to six chapter of poetry. It's called 'Five Stages of Grief: Lovesickness (A collection of freeverse poetry)'
          I'll be posting a chapter a day.
          Enjoy.

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          I had a dream, 
           My family had gone back to this Blue beach house that we lived in when I was a child. We went there to retieve all our property, because the house was a few days from being engulf in water. I had flashbacks and nostalgia I had never felt.
           Memories from the place didn't exist. Yet I see myself and my family. It felt so real.
          
          Except, this never happened. 
          
          The house was never built.
          
          My parents don't own a beach house.

Sorry but I can't really find a way to continue Joel and Matt's Story so until then.. 
          
          Time for some new stuff!

So This summer I've been planning to Add a few things:
          
          -A drawing book
          -Smut
          -Kinky Shit
          -Requests
          
          Not really sure but I have to do something besides rotting away.

Damn, I can't feel my soul. 
          
           It hurts. 
              I guess pain is all I can feel.
               No wonder I feel like a demon.
          
          My soul is fading

I'm friends with this monster in my head. Crawling and clawing at mind. 
          Waiting for the perfect moment​ pounce. 
          Just wanting to come out. 
          Needing all these hunter instincts to transpire. 
          Screaming everyday.
          

Today is my 'In Pain' Day. 
          
          I hate you. 
           Just tell me the truth.
            I don't care that you lied to keep me from crying. 
           Because hearing it from someone else is torture.
          
          My heart is in pain. 
           Staring at you. 
            Wanting to be jealous of everyone around you.
          Hoping that you'll look at me.
           Do you still see me? 
          Or am I just other admirer stuck in the dark?
          
          Why am I alone again?
           Stranded away from my family.
            On a desserted cloud in the night sky.
           Just one thing on my mind.
             KILL MY SOUL
           

Haven't you felt so alone. 
           Laying down on your bed. 
             Just staring at the bare ceiling.
             
          Wondering where we belong.

I'm coming back to reality. 
           No more dreaming
             Time to start fighting.
                 It's finally time I realized the truth.
                         
          I was a fool for love.

Injured in the name of love. 
           Your eyes reveal that pain. 
             The walls closing in fast.
               You grab your heart-shaped stressball, trying to dimish the agony.
            I'm hoping to see an end to this ghastly tragedy.