Hello my fellow people I have been in a bad spot and my mental health isn't the best. My whole life has been one giant flipping rollercoaster that jerks with your emotions and likes to mess with you a lot and well here lately I have been through the deepest and lowest part of my chaotic life. My purpose on in this world is to make everybody that knows me happy and cheer them up when I myself is at my lowest point. My life has been and will be hard and will make it feel like it's not worth it anymore so why keep doing it everyday. Most of the time I hide these feelings because I don't know how people are going to react to me. I struggle with ADHD, depression, anxiety and sum what bipolar and it sucks when you have to be the one who can pick up the weight of everybody else and have act like none of your issues is worth talking about to anyone. And for that reason I fight with myself everyday contemplating whether or not it's worth it to carry on with life. It hurts knowing that the people I keep close to me I can hurt in a second because of my anger and impulse issues I have even thought about taking my own life before and twice now I have actually attempted to do so. My life is not something you can help me through but I am a fighter and I don't listen to all the voices in my head I have learned that they just want me dead. But uk what hurts more is when the people you care about backstab you and make you feel like you're not worth it and you don't make a difference in this world.
