Ree

This week has been one of the worst weeks of my life..

Wow imagine hearing the news that your boyfriend wants to take a break AND your great grandma had a stroke again and is in the hospital :) amazing day 

Literally everything is going wrong like my friend and COUSIN tried to force me and guilt trip me into doing weed so I had to lock myself in the bathroom for a while and then they got MAD AT ME FOR NOT DOING IT so I left and then my fucking boyfriend is saying we should take some time for ourselves and get better so he's leaving me and now I get the news that my great grandma is in the hospital again I'm literally just done

I  wish I had something to be proud of

I'm thinking about suicide and I just don't know what to do and I feel like I'm such a burden and I just can't do this anymore I don't wanna disappoint anyone and I just want a hug or someone say they're proud of me but obviously I'm not gonna ask that because there's nothing to be proud of

I don't know what to do anymore

Just found out the news I made my boyfriend cut #liretallykillingmyself

Why do I always have to be a huge fuck up like deadass what the fuck is wrong with me I'm such a bitch and I literally deserve to just die and rot in hell for all the shit I've done 

I am officially done with being little lmaooo

I keep almost crying I'm literally done with having emotions