I don't know why i loved you the way i did, but i gave you everything, my heart, my trust, my entire self, and in the end, you broke me in ways i still cant fully process. Day after day, month after month, i stayed. Even when everyone around me told me you'd break me, even when i saw the signs, i stayed. i wanted to believe that love was enough, that it could somehow fix what was broken between us, but now i see how naive i was. i gave you pieces of me that i can never get back, and in return, you left me with nothing but empty promises and unspoken regrets. Now, months have passed, two, maybe three and its supposed to be over, right? i told myself i was done with you, that i was over it, that i could move on. But the truth is the damage you left behind is still here, haunting me in way i didnt expect. A shadow i cant shake off, lingering. i dont know what love is anymore, or how to feel it, my heart has become numb, unable to trust, unable to open up the way it once did. the love i gave you, the love I thought was forever, is gone, and its in this empty place that i can not fill. I feel unloveable now, and the hardest part is that i'll never fully understand why i loved you that much in the first place. i cant understand why my heart chose you, why I held on so tight when everything around me was falling apart. in the end, my heart doesn't choose anyone anymore. its become to afraid, to scared to trust. ive built walls around it because the thought of loving someone else, of letting anyone else in, feels like a risk im not willing to take.