I feel like I have nothing left to give. I can't do anything right, and everybody just leaves. The few friends that I have left I'm so grateful for and I will never do to them what you've done to me. I don't want them to feel like this. When you hear me say "I'm fine" most of the time it's not true, in actual fact I'm dying on the inside. I went two weeks crying by myself because I thought of myself as stupid and worthless. Now I'm just done. I'm done with you. I'm done with your secrets, your lies and your leaving. I just can't do with staring at your face any more, or our old conversations and wondering where it all went wrong. I just can't handle it any more it's killing me inside to see how much I used to love you. I used to joke and say that when we didn't talk I would get depressed and now that it's become a permanent thing I cry over pretty much everything. I feel out of breath constantly and I'm just done with thinking about you. I regret ever speaking to you. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough. I'm sorry I couldn't handle it. But I did nothing wrong. It's all you. You've crushed me. I'm deflated. I'm done. People keep mentioning you and today I nearly burst into tears in front of some people asking how you were and when I was going to meet you. Word is slowly getting around about your true colours, and to be honest I avoid answering the questions now. I can't even bear to say your name. Every piece of paper that said your name on it was shredded and every photo deleted because I don't want to remember you. If I remember you I'll remember this pain. So that's it. I'm forgetting you. I can't do it any more. I need to move on and be with my real friends who actually do care about me.
