Sunbeam

im hella late but happy 2022 sunny, i miss you :(( <33

Happy Thanksgiving!!
          
          You're super awesome :D

i miss you :(

wifey i miss u.

Sometimes my friends will text in the group chat and I'll respond once or twice before just watching. I'll be there and they can see me there but I don't say anything. These are friends I haven't seen in a few years, we've been growing apart and ik I should be talking but I really just like watching them talk and enjoying their conversations. It feels kinda like I'm there and I like that feeling. I wish I could be with them irl but it's just different now and I feel like we wouldn't get along. So much has changed and I like remembering the good things. But back to the chat thing, I sometimes feel like they think I'm ignoring them or leaving them on read when I do that and I don't want them to feel that way.

Remember to wear your orange shirts for every child matters. It's a horrible part of Canadian history but we need to remember it and make sure it doesn't  happen again. Countless children died from these residential schools. If you want to know more, and I highly encourage it, check out this website: https://www.orangeshirtday.org/

*Cri* I miss you bestie…. 
          
          
          ToT

Me listening to Summer Depression by Girl In Red while crying over broken friendships is a mood tbh

Not a great start to my day. It’s a little after midnight and I’m crying while scrolling through Pinterest

A few things:
          1. I went to the fall fair!! It was SO fun. I won a frog plush so yay. It started raining near the end so the rides closed down but overall I had an amazing time. 
          2. Started watching Brooklyn nine-nine (like my friends have been telling me to for months) and Rosa is definitely my favourite character. 
          3. Started school some time again. It was a few weeks ago but I didn't announce it so I'm saying it now. It feels weird but not any different. 
          4. I've been feeling really emotionally tired lately and just down. Idk why. I'm fine if I'm doing something fun but most times (like now) when i'm just sitting in bed or class I feel really 'meh' and I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing. 
          5. Another thing that I started, therapy. Yeah. Just started so idk how it's going. I discovered that I cry whenever my old friend is brought up. Well I wouldn't say friend. She could be friendly but she also laughed whenever I cried, told my secrets to everyone, and switched between hanging out with me and ignoring me very quickly. Like I said, she could be friendly so maybe it was just me seeing things wrong but my therapist said that I shouldn't say things like "maybe it was just me" when talking about these things so she was probably a fake friend. Also, I watched one of those videos on how to tell if a friend is fake and she checked 5/7 boxes so maybe?
          
          Sorry for ranting. I'd love to talk about the 5th thing (my fake friend) with anyone who wants to and won't ask too many questions.