Fumapower

I'm working on a jeongsung book, I don't know if anyone wants to read that. So if you think I should, please let me know before I publish it, thanks:]]

Fumapower

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Y'all I think my friends blocked me for defending myself against my ex...like they've always been like this, they know about the horrible things he's done to me, but none of the seem to care about that. I've always been a "backup" friend when the others don't have time, like every single time I'd speak they'd literally tell me and I quote, "Esli, shut the fuck up, no one cares". I only want to talk to them and it's like I don't even exist unless it benefits them. On my birthday, none of them even told me happy birthday, but on every single one of my friends' birthdays, I get them gifts, say happy birthday, I even bake things for them and none of them even appreciate my existence, and it's not like I can get new friends because in my school, I'm seen as one of the "weird kids", so no one else really talks to me. So at this point, I feel like choosing my own isolation is a better idea than hanging out with some people who don't give a fuck about me, so I'm just going to keep to myself for the school year...I really don't know what to do anymore, I'm just so tired of being pushed to the side by people I treated as a family, I'm not going to keep hurting myself for them, sooo..tell me what you guys think :]

Fumapower

@_autO_gearbl_ thank you for your advice, and my birthday is December 14th
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_autO_gearbl_

@Koegawari bro, I think it's better that you stop hanging out with them, it'll be better for yourself cause I don't think you should spend time with them after observing the way they treat you... And you're not weird! There might be some kids who have their own way of expressing rather than choosing the common way and that doesn't make the child 'weird' it makes them 'unique' and I think that staying alone is better than having friends cause then you can escape a lot of feelings and compromises that are unnecessary and hurtful... And gifting someone hand made things is so precious!! If I was in their place I would've never stopped praising you for the effort bruh, cause you had enough love for me to make something for me (I'd literally cry)... So if you're gonna shut them out then, I think it's a good choice! 
            
            Anyways, when's your birthday if you don't mind me asking?
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